i won't be alive to watch the chiikawa movie in 2026 :(

[monetpompo]

sister sent me this. i already knew about the chiikawa movie in the afternoon because i'm in the chiikawa subreddit, but it reminded me that i'm going to die next month and there's pretty much nothing i can do to that would make me want to stay alive to see it. it's easier to kill myself when i still have the nerve. i get incredibly depressed every time a new year starts because i hate when things change. more of my friends will be moving away or will be busy with their jobs and i'll still be withering here. i used to think that i'd be excited to see the chainsaw man reze arc movie but now i don't really want to see it because i think i'll get too sad, since i wanted to see it in theaters but i had no one that wanted to watch it with me. and i couldn't afford to buy my own ticket, lol. it's my fault for having no job.

all the things i was excited about this year kind of stopped being important to me. i used to be really excited about movie releases and horror movies, but now i don't care because i'm sick of watching movies on my laptop while other people have friends they can go to the movies with and talk about it afterwards. i only had one friend that liked watching movies with me and he moved away. i can't watch movies when they make me feel so lonely now. my attention span's also shot from consuming so much youtube slop and depressing content while laying in bed.

if i was a different person in a different life, i would be very excited about the chiikawa movie. i've been keeping up with the manga translations every week, in spite of everything. one day i'm going to be dead and i won't be able to read chiikawa anymore, but i've accepted that. the pain has just gotten too much for me to be able to ignore it. it's lonely to not have anyone to tell this to. i've gotten really sick of my account since i think that everything i post is stupid and whiny. i hope that someone is able to watch the chiikawa movie for me when i'm gone.

 

[madwoman]

I'm sorry for your pain I also have mixed feelings on movies I won't be able to see or books I won't be able to read once I'm gone. They are my escape but it makes me sad at the same time that that's what my life is, escaping into fictional worlds or watching everyone else live their lives with a lot more joy then I have.

 

[Pluto]

 

[shuteyefish]

I felt the same way when I heard about the movie! I'm relieved (and sad) that I'm not the only one.
So many of my interests are having new cool stuff released in 2026-2027, yet I won't be alive to see any of it :( sucks

 

[Mooncry]

Yeah… I also hate that I won't be around to enjoy any of the things I love anymore, all the stuff that already exists, as well as what's to come. :(

But that's how it'll always be, huh? Even if I were to live another 50+ years, I'd still be feeling the same way on my deathbed then as I do now. There will always be more, and you can't possibly experience it all. It's still sucky though… I always bribe myself with "just one more video game cuz I'll never be able to experience this again ;v;" lol

 

[littlecutecorpse]

yeah, kinda dealing w/ the same thing. back in august i got invited to go see a performance by our local symphony orchestra at the concert hall in downtown. was going to be taken to a banquet after, so it was kinda gonna be like a fancy, formal trip. i'd like to go, but problem is that the performance isn't until january....26th. that's like 3 weeks after my death should my ctb plans succeed on d-day. kinda sucks, but oh well. there's a reason i'm going to ctb in the first place xP

 

[Terrible_Life]

sister sent me this. i already knew about the chiikawa movie in the afternoon because i'm in the chiikawa subreddit, but it reminded me that i'm going to die next month and there's pretty much nothing i can do to that would make me want to stay alive to see it. it's easier to kill myself when i still have the nerve. i get incredibly depressed every time a new year starts because i hate when things change. more of my friends will be moving away or will be busy with their jobs and i'll still be withering here. i used to think that i'd be excited to see the chainsaw man reze arc movie but now i don't really want to see it because i think i'll get too sad, since i wanted to see it in theaters but i had no one that wanted to watch it with me. and i couldn't afford to buy my own ticket, lol. it's my fault for having no job.

all the things i was excited about this year kind of stopped being important to me. i used to be really excited about movie releases and horror movies, but now i don't care because i'm sick of watching movies on my laptop while other people have friends they can go to the movies with and talk about it afterwards. i only had one friend that liked watching movies with me and he moved away. i can't watch movies when they make me feel so lonely now. my attention span's also shot from consuming so much youtube slop and depressing content while laying in bed.

if i was a different person in a different life, i would be very excited about the chiikawa movie. i've been keeping up with the manga translations every week, in spite of everything. one day i'm going to be dead and i won't be able to read chiikawa anymore, but i've accepted that. the pain has just gotten too much for me to be able to ignore it. it's lonely to not have anyone to tell this to. i've gotten really sick of my account since i think that everything i post is stupid and whiny. i hope that someone is able to watch the chiikawa movie for me when i'm gone.

I feel it I won't be alive to see netflix one piece season 2 but I wished so much I could just binge watch it right now. Also I won't be able to see netflix avatar last airbender season 2 and one thing I really would have loved to see was the michael jackson biopi but it is what it is I unfortunately .