i wish there was a cheap easy way

[sobsob]

its so unfair that theres no way to cbt that is accessible, effective, and painless, right??
honestly the thing I am most terrified of is failing and then being in horrible pain or otherwise disabled for the rest of my life. i want a method that is certain to work. and I am afraid of pain.
i have done so much research and the only methods that sound good to me are not at all accessible to me right now. I'm so sick of this I just want a way out. for like 10 years I've felt this way and it just never stops. i know it will never get better. its so miserable out here

 

[CatLove56]

Our masters know a lot of us would take the easy way out that's why it's hard to get peaceful options. Pretty much decided on partial hanging. Not illegal to buy rope yet.

 

[bitofftoomuch]

can I ask your country?

 

[sobsob]

can I ask your country?

USA

 

[bitofftoomuch]

USA

SN is still buyable. I got some a few months ago.

 

[sobsob]

SN is still buyable. I got some a few months ago.

ive done as much research as i can but cant seem to find anything, it might be because of my state though I think I saw there's restrictions on it here

 

[ladylazarus4]

ive done as much research as i can but cant seem to find anything, it might be because of my state though I think I saw there's restrictions on it here

You can buy SN in every state to the best of my knowledge. But even though it is possible to find/buy, I get that it can be very hard for a lot of people. Me personally, I found the source but I'm unable to buy it because the payment method is inaccessible to me. But SN isn't my first choice anyway. There are more (relatively) cheap methods out there.