Venting i wish something terrible would happen to me

[Okokaykay]

i think of ctb throughout my whole day now- sometimes its the first thing i think of when i wake up. sometimes i just go through my whole day hoping i get caught in some random accident. its constant and my only source of relief from everything and i cant help but feel guilty at times.

 

[Darkover]

yep i wish covid would mutate and come back with 100 percent mortality rate and infection rate

 

[Redacted24]

Sorry for that. It must be exhausting. You shouldn't feel guilty about your feelings...I think most of us here have them too. You're not alone.
Here's mine: I fantasize of a workplace shooter scenario on those days when I'm at work and trying to get by. I'd be that guy that charges in to distract that SOB and give to opportunity for others to escape - they can live, I don't care if I do.

Some days are worse than others, aren't they?
Sorry about yours.

 

[MrP]

I wish the nukes finally start flying!

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally envy those who die in accidents especially if they die instantly, it's understandable wishing for that.

 

[F@#$]

i think of ctb throughout my whole day now- sometimes its the first thing i think of when i wake up. sometimes i just go through my whole day hoping i get caught in some random accident. its constant and my only source of relief from everything and i cant help but feel guilty at times.

I'm the same way. I get " jealous" when I see that some random person got killed in some accident or whatever.