Venting i wish someone killed me

[dinosavr]

In my daydreams I lay down on the pavement, the rain is pouring. I have tears in my eyes. Some random people are kicking my stomach, legs, head, shoulders. I feel the taste of my blood. My ribs hurt. They are insulting me. I'm not even trying to defend myself. I let them beat me until I pass out.

I don't care about anything, pain doesn't matter to me at all, just please someone do it for me I have almost everything ready. Why is it so difficult to complete the plan???

 

[derpyderpins]

I haven't pictured a random crowd doing it but there's definitely something that is comforting about imagining someone else doing it for you. I guess similar to how I constantly imagine getting a terrible illness or something. Take it out of my control.

 

[goodoldnoname923]

I used to often have visions of my old friend killing me,honestly i just wish someone would so the suffering would ve over

 

[dinosavr]

I haven't pictured a random crowd doing it but there's definitely something that is comforting about imagining someone else doing it for you. I guess similar to how I constantly imagine getting a terrible illness or something. Take it out of my control.

Exactly! Especially when I see people who deal with cancer or other shit and they want to fight for life. Why can't we just overtake their disease? It's a win win situation

 

[DarknessInMe]

Exactly! Especially when I see people who deal with cancer or other shit and they want to fight for life. Why can't we just overtake their disease? It's a win win situation

Absolutely, this is what I am constantly thinking about. I would do everything to get diagnosed with a terminal illness, and if I could even overtake one by another person wanting to live it would even be extremely helpful for someone else.

 

[Aleko leonidze]

i wish i'd die in an accident or have someone kill me too because i think doing it myself is too shameful.

 

[IBM0000]

Nope! You're too idealistic, I omce thought the same but I gave up on that line of thinking. You gotta put in the effort to make people do that
And that may be more painful than suicide itsself.

 

[astonishedturnip]

I absolutely wish someone would just walk up behind me on the street and shoot me in the head.

 

[derpyderpins]

I absolutely wish someone would just walk up behind me on the street and shoot me in the head.

That would work, but so long as we're daydreaming I think there's something more intimate about suffering a bit at someone's hands like in OP's example. Strangling/choking for me, please. And again, as OP described, insult me a bit. Tell me why it doesn't matter that I'm dying.