sivvie
Wanderer
- Aug 23, 2021
- 84
I'm genuinely so tired. It feels like something in the universe lined up a bunch of unlucky things in my life to make me have to keep on delaying my death. I'm being pressured to start my degree, my dad is coming to visit soon which is honestly enough of a reason for me to want to die, I also got really sick (((:
I fast every day for long periods of time, hoping that I get past my overthinking and just take that damn fucking SN; I still make it to the next day, full of regrets. Maybe I'm asking for too much perfection. I don't want to get caught, but maybe I should learn to be okay with not everything being okay, or going according to plan.
I recently finished a Visual Novel I'd been reading and I can see now how much I've been using it as an escape. I feel so empty now that it's finished, it was my ideal world. I also got attached to one of the characters which is pretty pathetic ngl.
I just feel like one big, pathetic, cowardly, weak mess. I really really just want this to be over with. Every day, I regret staying another day. Every single day hurts so much. I want it to be over so bad. This world isn't for me. I wish I could just die in my sleep. I hope I either get over my anxiety and fears, or fucking do it scared.
I fast every day for long periods of time, hoping that I get past my overthinking and just take that damn fucking SN; I still make it to the next day, full of regrets. Maybe I'm asking for too much perfection. I don't want to get caught, but maybe I should learn to be okay with not everything being okay, or going according to plan.
I recently finished a Visual Novel I'd been reading and I can see now how much I've been using it as an escape. I feel so empty now that it's finished, it was my ideal world. I also got attached to one of the characters which is pretty pathetic ngl.
I just feel like one big, pathetic, cowardly, weak mess. I really really just want this to be over with. Every day, I regret staying another day. Every single day hurts so much. I want it to be over so bad. This world isn't for me. I wish I could just die in my sleep. I hope I either get over my anxiety and fears, or fucking do it scared.
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