I wish i was never born, this life is a nightmare.

[Daystavro]

The title says it all really, I wish I was never born.
This life is a nightmare and a torture.
Filled with evil and unkind and unpleasant people who laugh at me and single me out and bully me and harass me.
And it's all about money.
You have to study and work, only to earn a low wage and be a slave your whole life.
This life is truly a nightmare.
That's why I want to ctb once my semester ends in a few months.

Again I am an atheist but let me quote Job 3 :

"Why didn't I die when I was born?
Why didn't I die as I came out of my mother's body?
Why was I placed on her knees?
Why did her breasts give me milk?
If all of that hadn't happened,
I would be lying down in peace.
I'd be asleep and at rest in the grave,
Why wasn't I buried like a child who never saw the light of day?
In the grave, sinful people don't cause trouble anymore.
And there tired people find rest.
Prisoners also enjoy peace there.
They don't hear a slave driver shouting at them anymore".

 

[Daystavro]

Once i'll ctb, and i'll be dead, NOBODY and I mean NOBODY will ever be able to laugh at me and harass me and bully me and make me feel bad again.
Also I would never have to study or work again.
I will have no stress from exams and essays, and I will never worry about money and being poor again.
I will be one with the universe and NOBODY and NOTHING will ever make me feel bad again.

 

[LostitAll]

Amen to that! I'm so tired of worrying
about money. I give up.

 

[creationisdeath]

The title says it all really, I wish I was never born.
This life is a nightmare and a torture.
Filled with evil and unkind and unpleasant people who laugh at me and single me out and bully me and harass me.
And it's all about money.
You have to study and work, only to earn a low wage and be a slave your whole life.
This life is truly a nightmare.
That's why I want to ctb once my semester ends in a few months.

Again I am an atheist but let me quote Job 3 :

"Why didn't I die when I was born?
Why didn't I die as I came out of my mother's body?
Why was I placed on her knees?
Why did her breasts give me milk?
If all of that hadn't happened,
I would be lying down in peace.
I'd be asleep and at rest in the grave,
Why wasn't I buried like a child who never saw the light of day?
In the grave, sinful people don't cause trouble anymore.
And there tired people find rest.
Prisoners also enjoy peace there.
They don't hear a slave driver shouting at them anymore".

"Some people die at 25 and aren't buried until 75."

 

[TheGoodGuy]

The title says it all really, I wish I was never born.
This life is a nightmare and a torture.
Filled with evil and unkind and unpleasant people who laugh at me and single me out and bully me and harass me.
And it's all about money.
You have to study and work, only to earn a low wage and be a slave your whole life.
This life is truly a nightmare.
That's why I want to ctb once my semester ends in a few months.

Again I am an atheist but let me quote Job 3 :

"Why didn't I die when I was born?
Why didn't I die as I came out of my mother's body?
Why was I placed on her knees?
Why did her breasts give me milk?
If all of that hadn't happened,
I would be lying down in peace.
I'd be asleep and at rest in the grave,
Why wasn't I buried like a child who never saw the light of day?
In the grave, sinful people don't cause trouble anymore.
And there tired people find rest.
Prisoners also enjoy peace there.
They don't hear a slave driver shouting at them anymore".

Describes it perfectly.

It´s insane how much work a regular person have to put into just keeping an average life like work 8-10 hours a day 5 days a week to earn just enough money to keep an apartment and survive. I also hate how people claim some jobs don´t deserve as much pay as high educational jobs. Like in The Wolf of Wallstreet where Jordan says "if you´re lazy just get a job at Mc Donalds" I think this is such bullshit because it doesn´t matter what job you have Mc Donalds employee, Janitor, realtor, etc. 8-10 hours a day 5 days a week is still hard work.

For the amount of hours WASTED on working all those hours everyday to only have 2 days to ourselves we should earn way more and even if I earned 10K a month I wouldn´t enjoy life because you need free time to enjoy life not just 2 days in the weekend that is also why the only way for me to possibly try and become happy is if I won the lottery because then I would have all the money and free time I could ever need thus giving me a good foundation to TRY and built a life worth living but I still might fail and end up ctb.

 

[worldexploder]

I think about this everyday. Sometimes it makes me angry that life was imposed on me.

My biomom, the bitch who abused me, is an anti-abortion advocate. She believes in banning abortion actually. I saw pictures of her on Facebook at a rally supporting "Amendment I" in West Virginia. If passed, all state funding for abortions and Planned Parengood would cease. The state would recognize that the constitution doesn't support the right to an abortion. What a bitch!

She's a sadist. After Hurricane Katrina she blamed the poor for those levees breaching. Said "if they would have cut welfare than the city would have had the money to rebuild the levees before the hurricane struck". What a cuntrag! Oh she thinks we have enough money for Iraq but yet somehow we cant have both welfare and strong levees.

Anyways, notice how pro-life people almost always seem to be against social programs? Seems like people like my biomom should be all for abortion since she's so against the government helping the poor.

 

[Daystavro]

Describes it perfectly.

It´s insane how much work a regular person have to put into just keeping an average life like work 8-10 hours a day 5 days a week to earn just enough money to keep an apartment and survive. I also hate how people claim some jobs don´t deserve as much pay as high educational jobs. Like in The Wolf of Wallstreet where Jordan says "if you´re lazy just get a job at Mc Donalds" I think this is such bullshit because it doesn´t matter what job you have Mc Donalds employee, Janitor, realtor, etc. 8-10 hours a day 5 days a week is still hard work.

For the amount of hours WASTED on working all those hours everyday to only have 2 days to ourselves we should earn way more and even if I earned 10K a month I wouldn´t enjoy life because you need free time to enjoy life not just 2 days in the weekend that is also why the only way for me to possibly try and become happy is if I won the lottery because then I would have all the money and free time I could ever need thus giving me a good foundation to TRY and built a life worth living but I still might fail and end up ctb.

All jobs are nightmarish.
In any job you have to work with evil and unpleasant people who will laugh at you and harass you and bully you and make you feel bad.
That's one of the reasons I want to ctb, is that I don't want to work in any job.

 

[Roph]

The title sums things up for me.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

All jobs are nightmarish.
In any job you have to work with evil and unpleasant people who will laugh at you and harass you and bully you and make you feel bad.
That's one of the reasons I want to ctb, is that I don't want to work in any job.

Glad I am not alone with hating to work it´s so frawned upon to mention even to close friends but I truly hate working whenever I worked I was just waiting to be done for the day so I could go home.

 

[Final Escape]

I think about this everyday. Sometimes it makes me angry that life was imposed on me.

My biomom, the bitch who abused me, is an anti-abortion advocate. She believes in banning abortion actually. I saw pictures of her on Facebook at a rally supporting "Amendment I" in West Virginia. If passed, all state funding for abortions and Planned Parengood would cease. The state would recognize that the constitution doesn't support the right to an abortion. What a bitch!

She's a sadist. After Hurricane Katrina she blamed the poor for those levees breaching. Said "if they would have cut welfare than the city would have had the money to rebuild the levees before the hurricane struck". What a cuntrag! Oh she thinks we have enough money for Iraq but yet somehow we cant have both welfare and strong levees.

Anyways, notice how pro-life people almost always seem to be against social programs? Seems like people like my biomom should be all for abortion since she's so against the government helping the poor.

Even though I've had 5 abortions I wish it had not been legal, but in a society where you don't have a general sense of security, or the feeling that you won't be left to struggle unnecessarily it makes sense for it to be legal but I know how legalization harms society. It has a decivilizing effect believe it or not. Abortion does not make people better off necessarily. It can in certain cases, but society would work just fine without it too and whites especially are not overpopulated. We are actually moving towards being a minority compared to the other groups and in big part due to the legalization of abortion and breaking down of traditional gender roles. Feminism, the current version is a big part of low white birth rates. The brainwashing of women to get careers in their most fertile years when u should be trying to marry first, have kids, then maybe later try a career if u feel like it lol! If only it was like the old days where we could just get married and mostly the guy had to work but we ran the household, cooked, cared for the kids etc. Doubt we will see those days again in America.

 

[Daystavro]

Glad I am not alone with hating to work it´s so frawned upon to mention even to close friends but I truly hate working whenever I worked I was just waiting to be done for the day so I could go home.

Yeah you are right.
It is a "blasphemy" to hate work in our society.
Screw that man.
Every job I worked in was a fucking nightmare and I counted every second.
Because of the people and the job itself.
Again all jobs are a nightmare.

The only good life is if you have made enough money to never work ever again.
But that is out of reach for 99.9% of humanity who have to work like slaves in order to survive.

 

[worldexploder]

Even though I've had 5 abortions I wish it had not been legal, but in a society where you don't have a general sense of security, or the feeling that you won't be left to struggle unnecessarily it makes sense for it to be legal but I know how legalization harms society. It has a decivilizing effect believe it or not. Abortion does not make people better off necessarily. It can in certain cases, but society would work just fine without it too and whites especially are not overpopulated. We are actually moving towards being a minority compared to the other groups and in big part due to the legalization of abortion and breaking down of traditional gender roles.

Oh abortion would have made all the difference for me. No suffering! I wouldn't have known what pain is if I was aborted. Think of the 5 fetuses you saved from the agonies that comes with existance.

 

[Final Escape]

Oh abortion would have made all the difference for me. No suffering! I wouldn't have known what pain is if I was aborted. Think of the 5 fetuses you saved from the agonies that comes with existance.

I do see it as I spared them, but at the same time what if they had turned out fairly ok. Probably not, because I was a poor single woman and having trouble with employment among other things.

 

[worldexploder]

I do see it as I spared them, but at the same time what if they had turned out fairly ok. Probably not, because I was a poor single woman and having trouble with employment among other things.

You can never guarantee a child's safety, wellbeing, or success no matter. Taking the law of probabilities into account, the situation you was in would have probably gave them lifelong problems.

One thing about the unborn is they don't need, want, or have the capacity to suffer or make others suffer.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Yeah you are right.
It is a "blasphemy" to hate work in our society.
Screw that man.
Every job I worked in was a fucking nightmare and I counted every second.
Because of the people and the job itself.
Again all jobs are a nightmare.

The only good life is if you have made enough money to never work ever again.
But that is out of reach for 99.9% of humanity who have to work like slaves in order to survive.

So true and it´s not like I am lazy I just have a very natural mindset I would rather have humans lived as hunters and gathers in the beautiful nature at least that would give some fullfillment to have hunted or gathered food instead of slaving away behind a desk to earn a paycheck to buy food. If you have ever fished, grown your own food or hunted you will know how good it feels to eat the food you have obtained through hard work.

 

[Final Escape]

You can never guarantee a child's safety, wellbeing, or success no matter. Taking the law of probabilities into account, the situation you was in would have probably gave them lifelong problems.

One thing about the unborn is they don't need, want, or have the capacity to suffer or make others suffer.

No you can't guarantee those things but if you are guided properly u can dramatically reduce the potential of failure for your kids. Probably the biggest thing u can do to ensure your kid won't wind up screwed up from a woman's perspective. Do not have sex before marriage, so basically wait for a nice guy who is willing to marry u b4 sex, extremely challenging these days by the way but it would ensure u had a guy who actually cares for you and will help u out should u get pregnant. It weeds out the dudes who just want to use you for sex but have no interest in participating in the event that you get pregnant. But good luck with this because men are now afraid to marry because of the state intervention into marriage and divorce. They are more aware of how they can be destroyed financially in the event that the woman decides she wants a divorce. To ensure a decent outcome for kids, two bio parents under same roof, and it helps if the mother can stay home in the early years especially for the sake of ensuring a healthy bond with your kid.

 

[Final Escape]

All jobs are nightmarish.
In any job you have to work with evil and unpleasant people who will laugh at you and harass you and bully you and make you feel bad.
That's one of the reasons I want to ctb, is that I don't want to work in any job.

I wish I could just work at places for like a week trial run without commitment first lol! Just try different ones for like a week or two and then tell the employer if i want to stay permanently or for a designated amount of time. For like a preset wage of a couple hundred for that week or something. I just threw out 200 bc I know how low the starting wage is for low skill jobs. I feel like when I get a job there's this commitment to something I may really hate and I don't want an employer to assume I will be staying if it's really awful conditions I can't tolerate. Often u don't know how shitty it is till u are a couple weeks in or better.

 

[Daystavro]

I wish I could just work at places for like a week trial run without commitment first lol! Just try different ones for like a week or two and then tell the employer if i want to stay permanently or for a designated amount of time. For like a preset wage of a couple hundred for that week or something. I just threw out 200 bc I know how low the starting wage is for low skill jobs. I feel like when I get a job there's this commitment to something I may really hate and I don't want an employer to assume I will be staying if it's really awful conditions I can't tolerate. Often u don't know how shitty it is till u are a couple weeks in or better.

I don't want to work in any job.
Every job is a nightmare.
I want to ctb and never work in anything for all eternity.

 

[Final Escape]

I don't want to work in any job.
Every job is a nightmare.
I want to ctb and never work in anything for all eternity.

Or I wish I could work but it was an incredibly satisfying job with perfect hours where I feel really valuable.