Venting I wish I knew friends

[EmoIsNotAPhase]

I think it's time for me to ctb to do it right and cause I failed so many times in giving myself 6 months to a year to prepare and go through with it if I can tolerate living that long
My only thing is o wish I knew what it was like to have an honest to god friend someone who I could have open up to and made memories with I wish I had friends who would actually talk abd interact with me I wish I was known on this life but it's too late even if I was going to ctb it's too late for friends. I mean it's probably better less useless fake crying at the funeral 'oh how did he not know he was loved' and all that other bs

 

[Deleted member 8975]

I mean it's never too late to make friends. I've done it and the great thing about being suicidal is near complete loss of inhibitions. I don't care what ppl think of me anymore, so it makes it easy to approach ppl and build something from nothing.

 

[Pan]

I wish I had your confident despair. It suddenly hit me yesterday when my lawyer mentioned my need for a health care proxy.
I don't have any friends; in fact I don't even know anyone who would be interested, other than my tenant, who is less of a friend and more of an acquaintance. Live alone, die alone—-what can I say?