I wish i killed myself earlier.

[asian.neet]

It sitn worth it.
applying to transfer colleges isn't worth it.
Waiting out for hope wasn't worth it.
My friends aren't worth it.

The only thing worth doing now is correcting my mistake: ctb now than earlier

 

[Finalnight]

I also should have CTB sooner, I regret every single second for not having killed myself earlier, I've suffered my whole life but never like now

 

[cosmic-freedom]

I wish I did the same too.I'll finally be able to sleep forever and without worry once I ctb.There isn't a day I don't wish for death.

 

[rozeske]

I also wish I killed my self earlier. Nothing substantial came out of my years of fighting and trying. But at least having done all I can in my power and fighting as much as I could for the life I wanted has given me a sense of a peace of mind that I never could have found had I made my decision back then. I can now rest with a peace of mind knowing I have done all that I can.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I feel the same. I wish I had CTB as a teen. (Honestly wish I had died long before that)
There is nothing left for me but misery and pain.

 

[DeletedUser]

Same...I am relieved my family have a weight off their shoulders from my departure.

 

[FuneralCry]

The way that you feel really is understandable, in my case I certainly feel like I've suffered for far too long in this existence, I personally wish that I never existed at all. But anyway best wishes.

 

[Olisop21.]

I wish I killed myself decades ago. I'm a coward afraid of everything especially SI. I was born with terrible genes. I need to CTB to save my poor husband. I am like a walking dead person. Nothing has ever made me happy. I have to stop practicing my method and just do it.