DreamingOfAutumn
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- Jun 15, 2022
- 14
I intend to CTB in the very near future, and it's not the fear of dying or fear of any potential pain which gives me the most pause, but rather that I can't tell people how I feel and what I intend to do while still being able to make the choice for myself. In absence of being able to say goodbye to their faces, I'm going to leave a series of about 20 audio recordings to talk about why I did it, and to say goodbye to my parents especially.
It's just sad that I live in a society where I can't be honest about what I intend to do, can't say a proper goodbye, and have to leave my body in a horrific state for my family along with whoever finds me, just to ensure that the method is properly lethal and so I don't have to risk hospitalization making it harder to CTB in the future.
It's just sad that I live in a society where I can't be honest about what I intend to do, can't say a proper goodbye, and have to leave my body in a horrific state for my family along with whoever finds me, just to ensure that the method is properly lethal and so I don't have to risk hospitalization making it harder to CTB in the future.