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m1dn1ghtmyst3ry
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- Feb 20, 2024
- 24
Today was a good day, until the end of the day and my mom comes home and needs something to bitch about. She started yelling at everyone saying one of us (me or my sibling) got into some of her shit or something when we never did and blaming everything on us about it. She gets like this everyday. I already planned for this to be my ctb date, I really wanted to do it do today, since I had a good day also plus this happening I want to ctb more than I did when I woke up but I can't overcome SI or the anxiety and actually do it. I even walked up to the river where I live and desired to ctb there but left. I took some random expired pills that my dad had as well a couple days ago and nothing happened. No vomiting or anything. It seems like I only have the courage to take pills, I even inhaled household chemicals but nothing ever kills me. I don't really know what this post is, I'm just tired of everything in my life being shit I guess and needed to vent about different things all at once.