I wish I could be evilly selfish like the majority of the world.

[CravingPeace]

I am too empathetic. I care too much about fairness, justice, and equality. Meanwhile, there is a deluge of others who are simply ignorant, willingly or not, to others' suffering and only focus on their own wellbeing.

Of course I care about my own wellbeing. But it is easy for me to sacrifice my own comfort to try and help the underdog gain some of their own. I feel a duty to ensure that those around me feel comfortable and safe, and even those past my reach, I dream of a world where we all can feel comfortable and safe.

But there are so many people ready and willing to snatch away the comfort and safety of others if it means it increases or maintains their own. And they seem so happy while they do it; I truly envy them. These people are often more powerful, definitely more powerful than me. And they get away with it with no repercussions. Meanwhile, if I fight back against their vile behavior, I am seen as the aggressor, the trouble maker, the fool.

I wish I could be as evilly selfish as them. But it's against the nature of my soul. My true selfish act will be giving up on hope for a better future for us all, when I catch this bus and leave it up to chaos.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Nice people finish last. And die first. It's the truth.

 

[CravingPeace]

Nice people finish last. And die first. It's the truth.

Why do I keep holding out hope. It's useless.

 

[Sutter]

Stillness.

Having a well and true big heart is a rare thing.

Met my wife's family years ago. The experience was friendly but more as an oddity like an easy going badger noting a clan of squirrels. Some were kind, polite, wary eyed, and there was a moving from branches to somewhere closer where I was at. Some time went by and after twigs and walnuts were stuck to a badgers coat they were easier with that presence. There was one though, one that was ragged with loss and a fair load of misfortune.

An older woman, friendly but wicked and as quick to rub a nose in a card game lost as to offer a hand in the worst of times. After a knowing was kind of a warrior queen that stripped a soul with a truth flail. Really though a bigger heart than many knew. She moved on to a twilight path a stretch ago.

As a badger met an old feisty squirrel, would have been much less so had an evil selfishness cracked out of a squeak. Could be a need, a balancing, of a heart and wrath. Maybe not.

Justice, fair, well more a spin of an old wheel than a fateful accounting. Life may not coat the world in the finery of a human thought but it walks wearing rags and a crown. Much like a squirrel deftly gliding over the entirety of a tree and as lightly through an expansive splay of forest branches, all a heartwood of the worst and most noble traits.

Just a span to give a pause that a striving was staked and more than one saw the value in it. Will never be the warrior squirrel but moved from a badger more to a fox for the sake of an old squirrel's sharp but caring ways and that of one old man.

Craving peace with branches of compassion may offer solid footing to water down selfish badgers strolling through trees as though they were fated to hang with squirrels. The grazing of a big heart though can fate a coat to luster some of that deep crimson color and bring a stillness to selfishness.

 

[CravingPeace]

Stillness.

Having a well and true big heart is a rare thing.

Met my wife's family years ago. The experience was friendly but more as an oddity like an easy going badger noting a clan of squirrels. Some were kind, polite, wary eyed, and there was a moving from branches to somewhere closer where I was at. Some time went by and after twigs and walnuts were stuck to a badgers coat they were easier with that presence. There was one though, one that was ragged with loss and a fair load of misfortune.

An older woman, friendly but wicked and as quick to rub a nose in a card game lost as to offer a hand in the worst of times. After a knowing was kind of a warrior queen that stripped a soul with a truth flail. Really though a bigger heart than many knew. She moved on to a twilight path a stretch ago.

As a badger met an old feisty squirrel, would have been much less so had an evil selfishness cracked out of a squeak. Could be a need, a balancing, of a heart and wrath. Maybe not.

Justice, fair, well more a spin of an old wheel than a fateful accounting. Life may not coat the world in the finery of a human thought but it walks wearing rags and a crown. Much like a squirrel deftly gliding over the entirety of a tree and as lightly through an expansive splay of forest branches, all a heartwood of the worst and most noble traits.

Just a span to give a pause that a striving was staked and more than one saw the value in it. Will never be the warrior squirrel but moved from a badger more to a fox for the sake of an old squirrel's sharp but caring ways and that of one old man.

Craving peace with branches of compassion may offer solid footing to water down selfish badgers strolling through trees as though they were fated to hang with squirrels. The grazing of a big heart though can fate a coat to luster some of that deep crimson color and bring a stillness to selfishness.

I'm having a hard time interpreting this..

 

[Still here]

I can relate to this...and if you ever happen to be in Africa you will get to see selfishness at it's zenith...

 

[SilentSadness]

I know, humans are animals, and animals prioritise themselves. It becomes easier to understand when you think of humans like cats or dogs, at the end of the day they don't think about others or care about long term consequences. Ultimately though, this world is structured so that evil people can get everything at the cost of everyone else, the amount of damage one person can do is completely unthinkable. This state of affairs is commonly referred to as "hell".

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

My gripe is that even when people care about fairness, justice, and equality, everyone has different opinions as to what that means. So ironically if 100 people are for fairness, justice, and equality, it could be 2-20 factions fighting each other over fairness, justice, and equality definitions.

We're all ignorant. And we all prioritize our own wellbeing in some fashion. If we didn't, we'd be out in West Africa trying to clean it up. Or sacrificing our lives to the greater good. But we don't, we play with our phones even though we know most of them were made by child labor or by people who are worked to death in factories to the point where they CTB themselves.

The unfortunate reality is that the nature of the world is dog-eat-dog, so us all being comfortable and safe is impossible. From the grass to lions in the fields, everything consumes something else to survive. That is the functional nature of, well, nature. That is the universe itself. Even the stars and galaxies consume each other.

That said, there are gradients. And it's certainly true that there are some highly evil people in the world, and a lot of them are in positions of power 100%, specifically because they have the ability to play puppet master and not care about people. And yeah, that's been my experience as well. There are no laws for the elites. Laws are only for us bottom feeders.

It only ever is chaos, isn't it. It's a good bus. A fine bus. I'm eager to see where it takes me, as well.