I wish ending it all was easy.

[FallingFree]

With no money and no job due to covid my options are slitting my wrists or the night-night method. 1 is extremely painful and unlikely to succeed the other isn't proven. I have everything setup for the night-night method and I am ready but I am afraid it is going to fail and leave me brain dead, stuck in this hell.

I feel trapped and I know getting help isn't an option for me. I have dropped so many hints and have straight up told people I am going to kill myself but nobody cares and if I get shoved into a mental health hospital for help I have already been told I will be disowned. The only way out for me is death.

 

[AmDead]

I have similar worries. My biggest is that I will fail or succeed but very painful. I just don't want any more pain.
If it helps, you wouldn't be conscious if you're brain dead.

 

[Spitfire]

I don't know what night night is?

It sounds like you know, but do not do the wrists. I am never afraid to tell people it just will not work on the wrists.

 

[AmDead]

I don't know what night night is?

It sounds like you know, but do not do the wrists. I am never afraid to tell people it just will not work on the wrists.

Night night is similar to partial hanging. There's a mega thread for it if you want to know more.

 

[Spitfire]

I actually have heard of it the name. I did not know it was like partial. I will have to check it out.

 

[nitroautnz]

Yes forget the wrist slitting, if you want to do it you need to aim for an artery, and in the wrist they tricky to reach, and you need to think of taking a blood thinner before doing it too. If you do some research you will see lots of failing attempts even after reaching an artery too.
Hope you will find a more peaceful method for yourself, and sorry that life made you wanting to ctb

 

[Meditation guide]

Yes forget the wrist slitting, if you want to do it you need to aim for an artery, and in the wrist they tricky to reach,

I had blood drawn from a wrist artery and the needle was thin as a hair to miss the tendons and went in really deep. It had to go in between all the tendons.

 

[Caspers]

If you want to talk about hypoxic brain injury, feel free to ask questions as I have one

 

[Spitfire]

I had blood drawn from a wrist artery and the needle was thin as a hair to miss the tendons and went in really deep. It had to go in between all the tendons.

You are right. There are tightly bound nerves, tendons, and other structures in the wrist.

If you do not know what you are doing you could cause permanent damage to lose the normal function of your hands and fingers. I would not want to lose normal function of my hands and fingers.

It is also comparable to using a kitchen faucet to try and drain a large underground pool. It would take all day...

It will start to clot off within 10 - 15 minutes too.

 

[Meditation guide]

It will clot off within 10 - 15 minutes too.

That's the problem with this, blood clots fast.

 

[Spitfire]

That's the problem with this, blood clots fast.

If you want to cut an artery you basically almost need to take the thinners too, or else it won't work.

Even still.. not on the wrist

 

[Meditation guide]

If you want to cut an artery you basically almost need to take the thinners too, or else it won't work.

Dying by cutting is usually not going to work. I have seen a video of some guy in jail who made three long cuts in his arms and was bleeding out but he really shredded his entire arm to bits.

 

[Spitfire]

You really have to be determined, or have some very specific knowledge and skills to make it go the way you'd want it to.

The movies glorify this method for some reason.

 

[nitroautnz]

That's the problem with this, blood clots fast.

Thats where blood thinner is useful, aspirin is the best over the counter I believe.

 

[RC90]

With no money and no job due to covid my options are slitting my wrists or the night-night method. 1 is extremely painful and unlikely to succeed the other isn't proven. I have everything setup for the night-night method and I am ready but I am afraid it is going to fail and leave me brain dead, stuck in this hell.

I feel trapped and I know getting help isn't an option for me. I have dropped so many hints and have straight up told people I am going to kill myself but nobody cares and if I get shoved into a mental health hospital for help I have already been told I will be disowned. The only way out for me is death.

I'm so sorry you are facing all of that. My family and friends also don't care when I say I'm ctb. Everyone says oh I'll be there for you but in the end we are all alone. you are not alone you have your family here that understands you.

 

[OblivionSeeker]

ctb is actually extraordinarily easy. N does the trick in a quick, gentle, painless way. of course our all-controlling society and government, won't allow adults over 21 to buy it. our society feels the need to control everyone's life to the max. Issues like this make me hate this country.

 

[ARW3N]

Not surprisingly, suicides have skyrocketed faster than the virus since the pandemic. I get the impression that even pro-lifers are more sympathetic now to people that CTB during the pandemic when all their resources have been depleted.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I don't know what night night is?

It sounds like you know, but do not do the wrists. I am never afraid to tell people it just will not work on the wrists.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/the-night-night-method-mega-thread.6834/ here is the megathread for you.

 

[Spitfire]

Okay, I see. Thanks.

I guess I just didn't know what it was called, or what the name night night meant. I had only heard of it being described by someone.

Good to know

 

[Wayfaerer]

If suicide were reduced to just pressing a shiny red button, would it still be hard because of SI? Tough question.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

If suicide were reduced to just pressing a shiny red button, would it still be hard because of SI? Tough question.

Really difficult question... but I'm pretty positive I'd be gone by now. Available methods take time and resources, giving you lots of chances to retreat. A simple red button would be too enticing.

 

[Deleted member 19654]

If suicide were reduced to just pressing a shiny red button, would it still be hard because of SI? Tough question.

If it was a guaranteed and instant death with 100% success rate, I would smack that button as fast as I could lol

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

if I get shoved into a mental health hospital for help I have already been told I will be disowned.

Fuck. Them.

Disown them first. Even if you still live with them, you can disown them inside, and totally disown them when you get out. Fuck them.

The first time I was threatened with being disowned, my mother was on a narcissistic rage and threatened me for things I might do in the future as a teen or adult that I hadn't even considered because I was NINE. I was three the first time she told me to pack my panties and leave, she went on a narc rage because I said I wanted to go visit my aunt. Guess who got exiled from the family eight years ago for refusing to continue to buy into the official family narrative that I wasn't abused and asked them to take some responsibility. Every year away from their insanity, the more self-respect and sanity I get.

Thanks for the reminder of how fucked up this shit is. You need help, and they say they'll disown you for getting help? I suspect they don't want the neighbors to know about what went on in the home during your childhood, either. Fuck them.

Did I mention fuck them?

P.S. Fuck them.

I'll even be classy about it:

NB. Fuck them.



Edit: I'm not done yet. Fuck them.







Edit: Sending supportive hugs.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

NB. Fuck them.

Edit: I'm not done yet. Fuck them.

This is my favorite moment on all of SS.

 

[scorpiooo2]

I understand, sometimes I wish there were a button you could push to ctb,

 

[FallingFree]

Fuck. Them.

Disown them first. Even if you still live with them, you can disown them inside, and totally disown them when you get out. Fuck them.

The first time I was threatened with being disowned, my mother was on a narcissistic rage and threatened me for things I might do in the future as a teen or adult that I hadn't even considered because I was NINE. I was three the first time she told me to pack my panties and leave, she went on a narc rage because I said I wanted to go visit my aunt. Guess who got exiled from the family eight years ago for refusing to continue to buy into the official family narrative that I wasn't abused and asked them to take some responsibility. Every year away from their insanity, the more self-respect and sanity I get.

Thanks for the reminder of how fucked up this shit is. You need help, and they say they'll disown you for getting help? I suspect they don't want the neighbors to know about what went on in the home during your childhood, either. Fuck them.

Did I mention fuck them?

P.S. Fuck them.

I'll even be classy about it:

NB. Fuck them.



Edit: I'm not done yet. Fuck them.







Edit: Sending supportive hugs.

I still love them. I am hoping they only say such things to ward me off from hurting myself or ending up in a mental institution but if they do mean it, it does hurt. If they were open about getting help and didn't tell me such things it would be so much easier to get help.