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madbananas
Wizard
- Apr 29, 2020
- 620
For me it's like a disability and is going to be the reason I ctb. People just say stuff like "just move on", "accept it", "let go", "You have to live for yourself" etc when in my case abandonment is the most painful thing I've ever experienced (I've even lost a parent). More so painful when it's a person who just ghosts without even offering an explanation, which I think is harmful, disrespectful and just childish really. My most recent experience of feeling abandoned was distress like I've never experience before. I became completely disabled cognitively and then my whole ego completely died on me because of how traumatic it was. The ego death was freeing and it was like getting a taste of what it must be like to live having had no trauma and a balanced healthy childhood. But sadly my ego came back. I'm tired of realising that people don't care about me after they told me they do, that they apparently love me, but then proceed to piss and dump all over me.