MathConspiracy
Stuckdent
- Mar 25, 2025
- 113
This is the ultimate pro-life wet dream – I feel like shit but I'm hopeless about my chances of ending it. Here are some reasons why I will never exit this world unnaturally:
- Failed Attempts. I've attempted hanging so many times but I always get it wrong. I don't even have a proper rope.
- I'm Not Even Depressed. Nobody takes me seriously, that's why I cut and drink. But by doing those things I'm just digging my own grave (not in a literal sense, sadly). People will think I'm just following some dumb internet depression aesthetic. I hate those "she's crying in the moonlight" pics anyway and I'm not even depressed, at least not in the traditional sense.
- "It'll Pass". There is no point in anything and I get little pleasure from any activities. I'm stuck. And when I speak up I don't have the words to express my situation. Whenever I try, I just get a random platitude ("Everything will be okay", "These feelings will pass" etc.).
- Consequences. If I get caught attempting, I don't know which one is worse: being forced to get help or being told not to be dramatic.
- Living Is Fun. When I tell people about my passive ideation, they say that "you won't go forward with it, I'm sure". They think it makes me feel better when really I just want to kill myself more badly. They just don't understand that it is possible to not like life.
- Availability of methods. SN – welfare checks. N – get scammed. Hanging – I'll never get it right. Gas – don't have the skills nor the money. Gun – I'm not American. Train – too many people near the tracks. Buildings – the ones that are high enough are locked down, housing rich people anyway. Drowning – I don't like pain. Prescription drugs – don't own enough to OD. Illegal drugs – I'd go to jail because the police in my country have the right priorities. What could I even do? I just can't cease to exist.
