i will die this week.

[SweetMemories]

i will not back out again. Saturday my ex boyfriend was with me. his birthday. his family Was also around. the ones who declinded there help before the break up. i couldnt hold it in the Supermarket and had a severe anxiety attack. told him that i will die when they bring me home. they did. i have no time. i will attempt till i die. i have enough of this shitty World.

 

[Jadeith]

Wish you peace, whatever road you might take.

 

[darksouls]

good luck, I hope you find peace

 

[Baisley]

i will not back out again. Saturday my ex boyfriend was with me. his birthday. his family Was also around. the ones who declinded there help before the break up. i couldnt hold it in the Supermarket and had a severe anxiety attack. told him that i will die when they bring me home. they did. i have no time. i will attempt till i die. i have enough of this shitty World.

Are you looking to CTB over your ex or are there other reasons?

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Sending love and hugs.

 

[Chocomel]

I hope you are successful and able to find the peace you are looking for

 

[SweetMemories]

Are you looking to CTB over your ex or are there other reasons?

tbh nothing made me suicidal before severe tinnitus. So a break up only attributes to this. imagine you have noises in your head. then make them as loud as a bus idling with the motor on. throw moderate cfs in the mix. k-ptsd, anxiety disorder. severe depression. now live life. happyly.


lol. sorry to be sarcastic. it is too much. 9 years. i cant do this anymore. there are few diseases which i personally find even more shitty. but severe, multitonal tinnitus is really very wide open on this list.

maybe i could cope when my landlord dont want to push me out of the flat. or someone would take me and this condition seriously. matter of fact is.. i am alone. All the time. nothing will improve. the oppsite. and the best: i would never thought about ANOTHER worsening of my t.

december was gift time..and i got it plenty.
i am way to tired to search for an games. if you dont do it properly, you will still be dead when you hang in the woods, right?
i fucking knew tinnitus will kill me. i knew it since 2017.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find freedom from suffering.

 

[Baisley]

tbh nothing made me suicidal before severe tinnitus. So a break up only attributes to this. imagine you have noises in your head. then make them as loud as a bus idling with the motor on. throw moderate cfs in the mix. k-ptsd, anxiety disorder. severe depression. now live life. happyly.


lol. sorry to be sarcastic. it is too much. 9 years. i cant do this anymore. there are few diseases which i personally find even more shitty. but severe, multitonal tinnitus is really very wide open on this list.

maybe i could cope when my landlord dont want to push me out of the flat. or someone would take me and this condition seriously. matter of fact is.. i am alone. All the time. nothing will improve. the oppsite. and the best: i would never thought about ANOTHER worsening of my t.

december was gift time..and i got it plenty.
i am way to tired to search for an games. if you dont do it properly, you will still be dead when you hang in the woods, right?
i fucking knew tinnitus will kill me. i knew it since 2017.

I'm sorry. I hope you get relief from your suffering.