I will die a virgin and alone

[Crematoryy]

Nothing will have been worth it. It was just me, from start to finish. Living without expecting anything from tomorrow. If I simply waited still, the future would consume me. I am like the dandelion strands that are carried by the wind: from here to there, haphazardly existing.

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

Well dying a virgin is a real shame. And right before the sex robots get good.

That's a very poetic phrase. I've found people on this forum to be highly poetic. I wonder if there's some connection with a poet's soul and deep despair. Or maybe deep despair simply creates the best poets.

A dandelion spreads seeds that proliferate through its environment, though. Parts of you will have impacted the world, regardless.

 

[ramon]

Nothing will have been worth it. It was just me, from start to finish. Living without expecting anything from tomorrow. If I simply waited still, the future would consume me. I am like the dandelion strands that are carried by the wind: from here to there, haphazardly existing.

Is it too late for you to even try recipes from the "Seduction Community"?

During a big chunk of my young adulthood I tried all kinds of free and paid materials (e-books, audios, and videos) from that community.

While I got a few questionable success stories, the ROI was always low.

Aging made me gain an experience that mixed with some of previously mentioned materials might have improved my odds in the dating scene. However, my current issues with (physical and mental) health, and money make another shot at dates next to impossible.

Are you still young to try again or are as old as me to focus on something else (like trying to successfully CTB in my case)?

 

[Forever Sleep]

Me too- most likely but, I'm ok with that. I prefer it this way than to have experienced a bad relationship or, a bunch of casual sex (which wouldn't have suited me- no judgement on what other's want though.)

I felt a lot more purpose to life when I was younger and striving for a creative career. In truth though, I think that was all just one big coping mechanism to get through as best I could. So, it feels more meaningless than it used to. I suppose ultimately though, I see that as a good thing. It will hopefully make it easier to let go when I know I'm no longer so attached to what I'm letting go of.

 

[Aloneandinpain]

I'll die a virgin and alone too.

For me, one of the worst parts is that everything I ever did in life was so that I'd better myself, so things would get better and eventually I'd achieve the goal of finding someone to share life with and being happy. Failing that I'd at least have happy experiences or friends.

In reality I haven't even had my first kiss yet.

 

[LunarEc]

What is it about the whole drive for sex and if you don't get it you choose to die, I don't get it.
I get being lonely sucks for you. it doesn't as much for me, but I've heard a lot of people wanting to die because they never lost their virginity.
That's something that I dont understand why. (not trying to be rude just a genuine question)

 

[Zaphkiel]

What is it about the whole drive for sex and if you don't get it you choose to die, I don't get it.
I get being lonely sucks for you. it doesn't as much for me, but I've heard a lot of people wanting to die because they never lost their virginity.
That's something that I dont understand why. (not trying to be rude just a genuine question)

Yeah.
but that's understandable. They've never done it so they idealize it.
then after a (big) while you realize that relationships are very rarely worth it, and that sex, while great, is like every other thing, getting stale after a while

 

[TransTaxEvader]

unfortunately same. i wish you the best of luck however.

 

[Rymrgand]

While I don't necessarily agree with the virgin part, since you can have a lot of sex and still be alone, being alone is horrible. Nobody to help you, nobody to care about you, nobody to love you, nobody to cry for you... Love (romantic or not) is necessary to have a decent life.

 

[GoSan1]

There is nothing wrong to being a virgin in my opinion. I am glad I still am one because I'd want to stay with the person who gets my virginity forever.

The problem is the loneliness and the sometimes ruthless hormones driving the lust levels up. The love I want doesn't exist, which in return kills my hopes. Without hopes and dreams a human cannot live, so death is the only thing I strive for now.

What is it about the whole drive for sex and if you don't get it you choose to die, I don't get it.
I get being lonely sucks for you. it doesn't as much for me, but I've heard a lot of people wanting to die because they never lost their virginity.
That's something that I dont understand why. (not trying to be rude just a genuine question)

I hope this explains it a bit. I think the author just used the term "virgin" cause in this world it is somehow seen as a insult after reaching a certain age and still being one... Sex shouldn't be a drive, but love overall should and for many is.

 

[LunarEc]

Thanks I get it

 

[LifeIsASadist]

I will too man, thats why I plan to commit suicide soon once I move out and hopefully ICE doesn't show up to my house. Only thing that can stop me is a girl wanting to be with me.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I was married for 20 years and had great sex, maybe not as much as I wanted but the overall loving relationship make up for the downsides. Now my wife left me and got emotionally distant out of nowhere, it's devastating. It feel like being a virgin again, except when I was a virgin I figured I would eventually meet women and that worked out. Now I feel worse than ever because I'm too fucked now up to ever attract a nice partner. I don't want to live single the rest of my life, I was married to long and my heart just feels constantly broken from living alone.

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

I was married for 20 years and had great sex, maybe not as much as I wanted but the overall loving relationship make up for the downsides. Now my wife left me and got emotionally distant out of nowhere, it's devastating. It feel like being a virgin again, except when I was a virgin I figured I would eventually meet women and that worked out. Now I feel worse than ever because I'm too fucked now up to ever attract a nice partner. I don't want to live single the rest of my life, I was married to long and my heart just feels constantly broken from living alone.

Same. But I was only married for 5 years. I don't miss her but I miss having someone. But I do miss my daughter which the ex wife got to keep. She's almost 18 now. And same with me too. My woman got emotionally distant out of nowhere, too. It does feel like being a virgin again for me too. My ex wife has made the rounds nonstop. She was a bit of a nymph. That gives me a slight sense of disgust and resentment, but it's fine. Just the way it is. Just have to let go of wanting things to be different and that makes me feel at ease. No use grabbing onto something that will never be.

20 years is a long time. I can't imagine. Even with just 5 it felt like we had telepathy with each other and were family.