Venting I will CTB on Friday 22

[Hans Voralberg]

That's it i am ready i want you to be with me when i will be doing this so i will open a thread on this day i just want to talk with people when i will be attempting to not feel so much lonely.

 

[DrownFeather]

It's your lucky day! Mine will be tomorrow

 

[DPJ187]

What a your method my friend. Have you done your research?

 

[VikingHagstrom]

People who say i m gonna ctb on "x day" on this forum won t do it in 99% of cases, instead think about how to get better. Your cause is not lost at all, and you probably still want to live for some things, think about it

 

[Crazy4u]

sorry to see you go. whether you ctb or not, i wish you the best

 

[Lalari!!]

Wish you success in whatever decision you make. What is your method if I may ask?

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I wish you the best in whatever happens, I hope you find relief from pain.

 

[Then_Tomorrow_4099]

godspeed

 

[Checkmate64]

Good luck in whatever you decide to do. Remember it's also okay to change your mind at any point.

 

[cringelord111]

RIP

 

[Hans Voralberg]

People who say i m gonna ctb on "x day" on this forum won t do it in 99% of cases, instead think about how to get better. Your cause is not lost at all, and you probably still want to live for some things, think about it

Im not an attention seeker i just don't want to be alone during the process that will be maybe painfull as fuck and this is my perfect date because i will be alone for even 8 hours straight. I have alternative which is going by myself to psych ward and said to them with tears in my eyes i need hospitalization right now. I just don't want to be alone so i want to tell you date before if anyone want to chat with me
Im not capebale of independent fuctioning in society at this moment. Me head is mess till the point of no return. I can't even remember things properly because of pain sadness and insomnia. My existence is nightmare right now

I like your attitude VikingHangstorm i had the same as you long time age you are good human

What a your method my friend. Have you done your research?

Caffeine OD i know i may fail but i don't have anything to loose

 

[Shu]

Im not an attention seeker i just don't want to be alone during the process that will be maybe painfull as fuck and this is my perfect date because i will be alone for even 8 hours straight. I have alternative which is going by myself to psych ward and said to them with tears in my eyes i need hospitalization right now. I just don't want to be alone so i want to tell you date before if anyone want to chat with me
Im not capebale of independent fuctioning in society at this moment. Me head is mess till the point of no return. I can't even remember things properly because of pain sadness and insomnia. My existence is nightmare right now

I like your attitude VikingHangstorm i had the same as you long time age you are good human

Caffeine OD i know i may fail but i don't have anything to loose

Have you tried being in the hospital before?

 

[Hans Voralberg]

No and i literally thinking at this point of just going there as an alternative but psychiatry in my country is reall mess
I thinking about suicide since 12 over 10 years of pain sadness and sorrow. I can't stand it anymore

People who say i m gonna ctb on "x day" on this forum won t do it in 99% of cases, instead think about how to get better. Your cause is not lost at all, and you probably still want to live for some things, think about it

God now i know how infuriating is when someone try to back talkyou it is a completly shitty feeling

 

[rationaltake]

I'm sorry you're in this position. Life is hell for so many of us.

I like your posts. You seem like you wish there was some help for you. I hope there is.

 

[DPJ187]

You wont be alone then mate. You will also feel no pressure or judgement, younjust somewhat you need to do to get through today. Personally indent think you are ready to CTB. Caffeine OD will be brutal to achieve and will be pretty unpleasant. Have you tried some weed? Try that and get yourself a game, not COD or anything like that, something relaxing. Whatever you decide we are here

 

[Judy Garland]

Please rethink your caffein OD method. It is VERY unpleasant. I tried to OD on caffeine pills when I was in my late 20s and I took about 60 or so pills at once. You will feel like you want to jump out of your own skin. You won't be able to sit still and you will honestly feel like you're going mad. This lasted for me almost two days. It's no fun at all. And of course, I survived. Please rethink your options.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

Please rethink your caffein OD method. It is VERY unpleasant. I tried to OD on caffeine pills when I was in my late 20s and I took about 60 or so pills at once. You will feel like you want to jump out of your own skin. You won't be able to sit still and you will honestly feel like you're going mad. This lasted for me almost two days. It's no fun at all. And of course, I survived. Please rethink your options.

I know it will be painfull i will be vomiting blood, shake, get a convulsions cold sweats, blurry vision even ringing in my ears. My kidneys can shut down. I will be yealling in pain like a wild animal and cry It will be from 4 to 6 hours agony. I hope i loose consciousness in between. I read evrything i can about it. It is never fun no matter what you use. I am fully conscious what i will expierience and i know i will be in tremendous pain and fear. The SI will kick in after drinking it. I know it all

 

[headspin]

That's it i am ready i want you to be with me when i will be doing this so i will open a thread on this day i just want to talk with people when i will be attempting to not feel so much lonely.

I plan on today...I am scared. I wish my life had not come to this.

 

[existcrisisactor]

That's it i am ready i want you to be with me when i will be doing this so i will open a thread on this day i just want to talk with people when i will be attempting to not feel so much lonely.

ok ill try to remember and keep an eye out just remember its ok whatever decision you ultimately make its always ok to stop last minute i am sorry for all the suffering that brought you to this point

I know it will be painfull i will be vomiting blood, shake, get a convulsions cold sweats, blurry vision even ringing in my ears. My kidneys can shut down. I will be yealling in pain like a wild animal and cry It will be from 4 to 6 hours agony. I hope i loose consciousness in between. I read evrything i can about it. It is never fun no matter what you use. I am fully conscious what i will expierience and i know i will be in tremendous pain and fear. The SI will kick in after drinking it. I know it all

are you sure you wanna go out that way there are more peaceful methods

I know it will be painfull i will be vomiting blood, shake, get a convulsions cold sweats, blurry vision even ringing in my ears. My kidneys can shut down. I will be yealling in pain like a wild animal and cry It will be from 4 to 6 hours agony. I hope i loose consciousness in between. I read evrything i can about it. It is never fun no matter what you use. I am fully conscious what i will expierience and i know i will be in tremendous pain and fear. The SI will kick in after drinking it. I know it all

are you sure you wanna go out that way there are more peaceful methods

 

[luke_skywalker]

It's your lucky day! Mine will be tomorrow

What time?

 

[DrownFeather]

What time?

4 hours from now

 

[luke_skywalker]

4 hours from now

May u find peace

 

[Judy Garland]

I know it will be painfull i will be vomiting blood, shake, get a convulsions cold sweats, blurry vision even ringing in my ears. My kidneys can shut down. I will be yealling in pain like a wild animal and cry It will be from 4 to 6 hours agony. I hope i loose consciousness in between. I read evrything i can about it. It is never fun no matter what you use. I am fully conscious what i will expierience and i know i will be in tremendous pain and fear. The SI will kick in after drinking it. I know it all

If you follow through this will be very scary. (I imagine any method is scary, as I get butterflies thinking of my day coming soon). It will take a long time for caffeine pills to do what you want them to and we're here to talk any time you want. If you go through with this use us to give you some peace.

 

[MatthewV3]

I wish you good luck, I hope it will go well.

 

[NoahJuan]

Im not an attention seeker i just don't want to be alone during the process that will be maybe painfull as fuck and this is my perfect date because i will be alone for even 8 hours straight. I have alternative which is going by myself to psych ward and said to them with tears in my eyes i need hospitalization right now. I just don't want to be alone so i want to tell you date before if anyone want to chat with me
Im not capebale of independent fuctioning in society at this moment. Me head is mess till the point of no return. I can't even remember things properly because of pain sadness and insomnia. My existence is nightmare right now

I like your attitude VikingHangstorm i had the same as you long time age you are good human

Caffeine OD i know i may fail but i don't have anything to loose

A caffiene overdose is NOT a good way to go.

In the 1970s, my first attempt used theophyllin, which is very similar to caffeine.

Your heart will race, you will get severe anxiety/panic attack, and your blood pressure will shoot through the roof. Death will likely come from blood vessels in the brain rupturing when your blood pressure shoots up to high. You will literally be able to see and feel the veins in your face bulge.