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- Apr 8, 2020
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I will turn 24 in a couple of months and i have achieved nothing with my life.
When i was younger there was so much i wanted to do with my life . I wanted to live in a different city, travel, life an exciting life with meaning and have a boyfriend who really loved me
I will turn 24 in may and will nothing to show for it
- Still a virgin and never had a boyfriend . Adult virginity is something that is made fun of. I have had relatives asking me why i am not married or no fiance.
-A law degree but not a lawyer. Qualifying in the UK is more complex and the system changing in the UK.
-living in the same neighbourhood since i was born.
- i am immature for my age. I failed to be a real adult that has it all together.
-Never had a job except volunteering. Employers are not interested at all. I am welfare because i failed to find a job after graduating
Knowing everything i know now i would have ended my life at 19.
My life is nothing but a disappointment. I don't want to see the next 10 years.
I plan to end my life after my 24th birthday or if that fails i still plan to die before i reach 30. I dont want life anymore. I want out.
I am not young any more. Life is simply not for me. I dont know who i am anymore.
All i know is am i not pretty enough, smart enough or even cool.
The lockdown and the pandemic means my life is now officially over. There is no future and nothing to look forward to.
I know people have lost thier lives to covid19 but the people who died are lucky ones .They are the lucky ones because they are free from this world and all that is wrong with it.
Being alive is not blessing. We who are living are the unlucky ones .
My family say " People need to be grateful they are alive " towards those who complain about the lockdown. My mum was finding it funny when my stepdad said his mother is depressed because she cant go out due to lockdown. My family thought this was joke.
My family have no idea i am depressed. I mentioned it in the past but they didn't want to listen. So i pretend to be happy. I lie so well. They actually believe I am happy
I am not grateful i am alive. There i said it. I dont deserve to be alive anyway.
We live in a world in which people must be successful or done something big before they reach 30.
Seeing people my age get married, move city, get elected in to public office, being a famous YouTuber or some kind of blogger or famous celebrity .
Lists like forbes under 30 doesn't help either
Being a virgin and never having a boyfriend i feel abnormal. Losing your virginity is something you are meant to lose in your teens. In the UK the average age to lose it is 18. The consent age is 16.
When i was a teenager I once read a story of a woman who killed herself after being single and seeeing all her friends getting married .
I found it weird at the time.
Looking back know i realise that woman in the story was my future.
More and more i realise i don't belong here and i will never find my place.
I cant ever see my life changing i feel so trapped.
All i know is i don't want to exist anymore.
Sorry for the typos i have thiw awful headache and cant think properly.
Happy New year
When i was younger there was so much i wanted to do with my life . I wanted to live in a different city, travel, life an exciting life with meaning and have a boyfriend who really loved me
I will turn 24 in may and will nothing to show for it
- Still a virgin and never had a boyfriend . Adult virginity is something that is made fun of. I have had relatives asking me why i am not married or no fiance.
-A law degree but not a lawyer. Qualifying in the UK is more complex and the system changing in the UK.
-living in the same neighbourhood since i was born.
- i am immature for my age. I failed to be a real adult that has it all together.
-Never had a job except volunteering. Employers are not interested at all. I am welfare because i failed to find a job after graduating
Knowing everything i know now i would have ended my life at 19.
My life is nothing but a disappointment. I don't want to see the next 10 years.
I plan to end my life after my 24th birthday or if that fails i still plan to die before i reach 30. I dont want life anymore. I want out.
I am not young any more. Life is simply not for me. I dont know who i am anymore.
All i know is am i not pretty enough, smart enough or even cool.
The lockdown and the pandemic means my life is now officially over. There is no future and nothing to look forward to.
I know people have lost thier lives to covid19 but the people who died are lucky ones .They are the lucky ones because they are free from this world and all that is wrong with it.
Being alive is not blessing. We who are living are the unlucky ones .
My family say " People need to be grateful they are alive " towards those who complain about the lockdown. My mum was finding it funny when my stepdad said his mother is depressed because she cant go out due to lockdown. My family thought this was joke.
My family have no idea i am depressed. I mentioned it in the past but they didn't want to listen. So i pretend to be happy. I lie so well. They actually believe I am happy
I am not grateful i am alive. There i said it. I dont deserve to be alive anyway.
We live in a world in which people must be successful or done something big before they reach 30.
Seeing people my age get married, move city, get elected in to public office, being a famous YouTuber or some kind of blogger or famous celebrity .
Lists like forbes under 30 doesn't help either
Being a virgin and never having a boyfriend i feel abnormal. Losing your virginity is something you are meant to lose in your teens. In the UK the average age to lose it is 18. The consent age is 16.
When i was a teenager I once read a story of a woman who killed herself after being single and seeeing all her friends getting married .
I found it weird at the time.
Looking back know i realise that woman in the story was my future.
More and more i realise i don't belong here and i will never find my place.
I cant ever see my life changing i feel so trapped.
All i know is i don't want to exist anymore.
Sorry for the typos i have thiw awful headache and cant think properly.
Happy New year
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