This time it will be in the evening when there is fewer people and more peaceful, I will plunge headfirst to the ground from the 40th storey...wish me luck...
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Soulless_Angel
existence is futile
- Jul 10, 2019
- 2,225
It was raining and had some people around which I would not like to traumatize with my sudden plunge to the ground. In the evening, there will be lesser people so less traumatizing if they found my body rather then see me hit the ground
The.End
This too shall pass
- May 18, 2019
- 80
That sounds scary has hell. I wish there was another way or something I can say to stop you.
Good luck in whatever you decide.
Charlielodge
Member
- Jul 14, 2019
- 27
Yeah not sure I could do it, maybe go backwards or wait till a foggy night so you can't see down properly.. takes some balls like
When you are unhappy and miserable, you won't even care
I find it exhilarating actually
I will probably die by end of 2019, anybody else too?
I am tired of trying, i don't even want to wait for anything anymore, I just want to die young
To be honest, i dont really care about the hope that my life will finally become better, because i am tired of waiting. Either I die, or my life starts to go in my favour
I wish I had a gun, then i would have been dead yesterday , troublesome
I find it exhilarating actually
I will probably die by end of 2019, anybody else too?
I am tired of trying, i don't even want to wait for anything anymore, I just want to die young
To be honest, i dont really care about the hope that my life will finally become better, because i am tired of waiting. Either I die, or my life starts to go in my favour
Oh when are you doing it and where did you get the poison? Is it highly lethal?
I wish I had a gun, then i would have been dead yesterday , troublesome
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intheend
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- May 29, 2019
- 124
Wish there was high buildings here too. Could travel tho, but don't know if I get access to a high building. I think I'm gonna settle for poison too.
marcusuk63
CTB
- Mar 24, 2019
- 1,735
I've got a to-do before death list. When said list is all crossed out. It's getting pretty short.
It is both lethal and completely reversible in hospital if you change your mind after ingesting it, call emergency and they'll fix you up in hospital. It is sodium nitrite, SN for short and a lot of information on it can be found on this forum by using the search function.
I got mine on ebay, if you're in US you can find it on amazon, and even some Walmarts carry it lol. Its legitimate use is as a meat preservative.
There is a megathread on it here on the forum. Use the search, don't be lazy. We don't do "spoonfeeding" in here, that would be considered encouraging suicide and it is against both the rules of this place and the law.
You can pop into the chatroom or use PM for more delicate matters.
You can pop into the chatroom or use PM for more delicate matters.
Sorry im too stressed and troubled with problems too think clearly oops and i did not even notice that there was a megathread for this
I found an area that is just concrete but is narrow as hell how is it a comfortable death lol . My plunge down needs to be spacious and not have jaggered walls beside just in case I freaking hit them before i drop down i swear to god the designer of the damn building
But that is the only 40 storey building I found, I will find other better spots around the building when i go there again i guess.
But that is the only 40 storey building I found, I will find other better spots around the building when i go there again i guess.
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Zzzzz
Nothing compares to the bliss of death.
- Aug 8, 2018
- 879
Hopefully by then too, I fucking despise being alive. Fear/Aversion to pain and violent methods kept me alive so far.
The only thing left is for me to find a suitable building to jump from, I guess I can go exploring and walk the streets to find the one that feels right for me . Such a hassle to find a building
Lol so many obstacles arise when you are trying to kill yourself. For example, no tall buildings, strict laws, no access to guns, not enough money....
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Kikoo Loool
Enlightened
- Feb 25, 2019
- 1,128
I'm sorry to hear that you'll pass away tonight. Farewell, whatever you choose at the very moment.
I hope I will.
I hope I will.
I am still here haha, still trying to find what suits me then when i feel comfortable enough to end it, i will
intheend
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- May 29, 2019
- 124
I can only think to jump but frightend I don't die and crippled or worse and stick stuck suffering this deafening hammering tinnitus wish I could just have heart attack naturally with this much stress from the horrific tinnitus im surprised ive not had stroke or heat attack I want to live but I cant like this its such suffering 2 years deafening roaring hammering drilling tinnitus both ears I had a life a happy healthy life this is slow torture day in day out I want to die I know this isn't going to stop dear god someone help me I cant do another night another day another week ive tried to live with this but its horrific can anyone stop this for me please someone stop this im going out of my mind its pure torture never thought I could end up this ill I don't deserve this no one does
why do you want to go surley whatever it is can be sorted I wouldn't want to go if it weren't for this horrific tinnitus can you get some help don't go surley whatever it is can be worked out
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Broken Chimera
The abyss also gazes into you
- May 27, 2019
- 972
I have tinnitus too, but it's not that bad. I use headphones to drown it out. Would that help you?
Sadly it doesn't due to extreme hyperacusis making all normal sound deafening too its horrific
ProhibereDolor
Cloak and Dagger
- May 21, 2019
- 88
The only issue I can conceive right now would be that once you are in the air it is really hard to orient yourself. So while you may jump off headfirst the chances are that because of wind resistance you will start to tumble. You could of course stabilize yourself but you have to have some sort of skydiving experience. And even then it's a fine line between being stable and tumbling. I can imagine 40 stories is more than enough to end your life regardless of how you land but I wouldn't want to be hitting any limbs first. They tend to absorb energy from the impact. I think 40 stories is plenty even if you land legs or arms first but still, I wouldn't want to be alive with bones sticking out everywhere. If it was me I would not go the jumping route. There are a lot of variables that can go wrong. Don't kid yourself by thinking you're going to land head first. You may just by luck, but your head is a small target and the rest of your body is a large target(obviously). I hope you can find the peace you are looking for.
Best wishes
Best wishes
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