I was suppose to be dead by now

[socrates]

2ish years ago I planned to CTB the first week of July. Sadly like everything else I've tried to do I failed. My sucky life is the same unchanged and unmoving. I'm worried things will get even worse which they most likely will and I won't have courage to CTB. FUCK! time is running out and all I can do is sleep all day not take the time to try to improve my life of make preparations for CTB.

 

[kinzokukae]

i've made so many deadlines for myself and failed to meet every one, it's such an annoying cycle /:

i want to die but can rarely bring my body to move past the lethargy, and when i can the attempts always fail. what a cruel life this is