Venting I was never ready

[HumongousTheGod]

again i'm sorry. i get it. i'm just really lost. no matter what's given to me in life i'll never be able to fit in anywhere i go and i'm always gonna feel like a freak alone and that's just my reality. i've been pushing everything away for awhile and my past has finally caught up to me. i feel like i was a really good person at heart but my breakdowns always lead to horrible decisions. at my end i just feel like a child just never had anyone to show him the way. end of rant

 

[HumongousTheGod]

again i'm sorry. i get it. i'm just really lost. no matter what's given to me in life i'll never be able to fit in anywhere i go and i'm always gonna feel like a freak alone and that's just my reality. i've been pushing everything away for awhile and my past has finally caught up to me. i feel like i was a really good person at heart but my breakdowns always lead to horrible decisions. at my end i just feel like a child just never had anyone to show him the way. end of rant

i planned on sending this to someone but idk

 

[HumongousTheGod]

maybe i should just go off the grid to ctb i'm a mess rn venting to strangers

 

[HumongousTheGod]

drunk and high and crying

 

[HumongousTheGod]

it's the alcohol making me irrational i think this ' liquid courage 'will come handy tnrw

 

[JazzyWolfWhistle]

Well, you can try to get yourself ready now. You can do it.

 

[15dec]

Hey, I'm sorry you're going through a tough time. If it's any help, you're not a freak here and you'll always be welcome. I don't know what you've done in the past but I understand having breakdowns can cause you to make bad decisions -I've done the exact same things and I can't bear knowing the distress I've caused others and myself, how it's effectively ruined the best parts of my life. So I guess what I'm trying to say is that I can begin to understand how you're feeling, friend. Whether you decide to ctb or not everyone here will be able to support/advise you along the way. Sending you hugs

 

[Kingkelly]

Thats why this site exists. Its OK! Your not alone