I was hospitalised for 10 days, a blink away from death after an attempt.

[wandafurudayz]

Honestly I regret it alot. My mother is absolutely traumatized and i have to repair the relationship with my family over this stupid shit. If youre considering commiting im begging you to look twice and imagine how those around you will feel afterwards. its difficult to kill yourself for a reason. you will not only traumatize yourself but your loved ones. I know that advice might not be able to go for everyone but just know time can only go forward. dont do something so stupid. im leaving.

 

[Chaosire]

Yeah, an attempt is pretty traumatising. Both for yourself and the people around you.
I've experienced that post-failed-attempt guilt a few times already.. One of the reasons I really want a professional to find me, after my next (hopefully successful) attempt.

I hope this experience is enough of a wake-up call for you to find help and get better. I really hope it works out for you

 

[Darkover]

if only our parents would of shown the same amount of consideration before they thrust us into this world, the pain your parents are feeling is self inflicted in a way, like a consequence of their own decision to bring a child into the world without fully considering what that life might entail, you're also feeling the weight of your family's pain after your experience. It's hard when these emotions collide—resentment toward the situation, but also the care you have for them

 

[suicidaltransgirl]

I'm glad you're ok <3

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

Big yikes. I am not about to keep suffering just to protect somebody's feelings. What about my feelings?

 

[Marco77]

It is an option to take into consideration when giving birth to a child. If your mother is traumatized it means she never gave weight to your state of mind. She never cared about how you felt. In concrete terms, what did your family do to avoid making you suicidal? Remember that you are the most important person in your life and you cannot spend your life pleasing everyone without dying inside day after day.

 

[TimetoGo!]

Honestly I regret it alot. My mother is absolutely traumatized and i have to repair the relationship with my family over this stupid shit. If youre considering commiting im begging you to look twice and imagine how those around you will feel afterwards. its difficult to kill yourself for a reason. you will not only traumatize yourself but your loved ones. I know that advice might not be able to go for everyone but just know time can only go forward. dont do something so stupid. im leaving.

I agree, and I have been in this situation as well. I wasn't trusted to be on my own for months afterwards.

That's why making sure the method you choose is a sure thing if you have made the decision to CTB.

My next attempt is imminent and I just cant fail this time!

Best wishes

 

[rozeske]

There is nothing stupid about people's suffering nor the immense difficulty of making the decision to leave.