Venting I was a “mistake”

[walkingdead2023]

I had a discussion with my mom today about life and asked her "why did you bring me here I just don't like living?" I thought she will jump out of her seat and ask me to elaborate, she said @ oh honey it was a mistake, I gave birth control I don't know how I became pregnant". So I was a mistake and about to fix that.. I'm going to kms very soon. I'm so stupid I was thinking about my mom after I die I told myself she will be traumatized but now " I don't think so"

 

[Sleeper System]

Nonsensical. Almost our entire population can be classified as a mistake.
Children are very rarely planned. Usually, the babies that are "wanted" are birthed by people with reproductive difficulties.
Some folks decide to start a family and just stop using protection but that doesn't count because it's a gamble.
Your mom is just being real. I would prefer that to a fake empathetic mother or not having one at all.
Shit. If she isn't traumatized then all the better. More power to you and your goal. We all fade one day. All problems are temporary.

 

[walkingdead2023]

Nonsensical. Almost our entire population can be classified as a mistake.
Children are very rarely planned. Usually, the babies that are "wanted" are birthed by people with reproductive difficulties.
Some folks decide to start a family and just stop using protection but that doesn't count because it's a gamble.
Your mom is just being real. I would prefer that to a fake empathetic mother or not having one at all.
Shit. If she isn't traumatized then all the better. More power to you and your goal. We all fade one day. All problems are temporary.

I think with my family money comes first. It's all about money they can buy anything they don't know that I'm desperate to die and leave everything behind.. thank you for responding!

 

[Sleeper System]

I think with my family money comes first. It's all about money they can buy anything they don't know that I'm desperate to die and leave everything behind.. thank you for responding!

Its good to have money but sometimes it clouds whats important. Np.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I hope your mother suffers unbearable grief every day for the rest of her life after you go. Not only as punishment for her "mistake", but also for not owning up to the "mistake". People like her need to be taught a lesson.

 

[Joker2003]

I was also a mistake.

My parents had me when they were still teenagers in high school and had no idea how to properly raise a child.

I really wish they would've aborted me, because now I have to suffer the rest of my life.

I love my mom, but some people shouldn't have children.

 

[Finalnight]

I had a discussion with my mom today about life and asked her "why did you bring me here I just don't like living?" I thought she will jump out of her seat and ask me to elaborate, she said @ oh honey it was a mistake, I gave birth control I don't know how I became pregnant". So I was a mistake and about to fix that.. I'm going to kms very soon. I'm so stupid I was thinking about my mom after I die I told myself she will be traumatized but now " I don't think so"

I'm very sorry for your experience, I wish it was like that with me, most of the time I feel as the worst mistake to ever happen, this would make things so much easier...

 

[walkingdead2023]

I hope your mother suffers unbearable grief every day for the rest of her life after you go. Not only as punishment for her "mistake", but also for not owning up to the "mistake". People like her need to be taught a lesson.

Amen! She will very soon I'm planning on going next week…

I was also a mistake.

My parents had me when they were still teenagers in high school and had no idea how to properly raise a child.

I really wish they would've aborted me, because now I have to suffer the rest of my life.

I love my mom, but some people shouldn't have children.

I agree with you! I think they should be more responsible. I'm so sorry that you have to experience this too!!

I'm very sorry for your experience, I wish it was like that with me, most of the time I feel as the worst mistake to ever happen, this would make things so much easier...

Thank you and I'm sorry you feel that way! I hate this life we are here to suffer and it's just not fair…

 

[tbroken]

My parents were perfect, but the environment is the hell. I'll cry for sure during ctb for what it could have been, but it was not.

 

[walkingdead2023]

My parents were perfect, but the environment is the hell. I'll cry for sure during ctb for what it could have been, but it was not.

I want to die right now! I just came from work and I'm asking myself " what I'm doing" I wish I can go to sleep and never wake up.. I'm trying to build the courage to do it u don't see light I live in the darkness.. I have to find medications that can kill me in peace.. I can't do sn it's too nasty and not peaceful at all.. shotgun is great but I'm not finding the courage to do it..

 

[walkingdead2023]

I'm sorry you had to hear about it this way op. I was a mistake as well. It came as a surprise but it hasn't affected my decision much - just gave me a lot of food for thought.

Thank you! It hurts my feelings but my decision is still active!

 

[Ligottian]

This world is a mistake.

 

[walkingdead2023]

This world is a mistake.

Right! I was watching the news right now and literally a couple of teenagers died by suicide and one police officer burned himself

 

[bigmanharsh]

It really is one of the most common traits between us suicidal people to have horrible parents huh. Even my own parents had me at an older age just because of "societal norms" (fucking bullshit). They had no intention to have me but they were pressured by their own family. They used to often tell me this as a way to demean me, It hurts so much to know the people who brought me into this world themselves don't care about me or my hurt. I envy those who had loving childhoods greatly. I hope all of us find peace. Best of luck brother.

 

[walkingdead2023]

It really is one of the most common traits between us suicidal people to have horrible parents huh. Even my own parents had me at an older age just because of "societal norms" (fucking bullshit). They had no intention to have me but they were pressured by their own family. They used to often tell me this as a way to demean me, It hurts so much to know the people who brought me into this world themselves don't care about me or my hurt. I envy those who had loving childhoods greatly. I hope all of us find peace. Best of luck brother.

I thought I had loving childhood but I think I'm replaying some memories so I'm not sure if it was loving.. my dad cares more than my mom! My dad will do anything just to see me happy but my mom is all about looks and jewelry.. unfortunately we can't just die. There is no magic pills to just close our eyes forever it's more complicated. I keep thinking about my dad I know he will not make it if something bad happens to me. Even tho I know that I'm still thinking about Omani think if I do it I will be so selfish. I wish I was never born to begin with