Venting i want to tell my friends

[meowwww]

I want to tell my friends how suicidal I am. I want them to stop me. I want them to convince me I'm loved, to stay with me and hold me and listen to me cry. it's selfish, because I think no amount of affection could ever convince me that the love is real. the more I open up, the less I trust in people's care. I guess I'm just fucked

 

[DivineSpark]

I dont want to make my family and friends worried, so I keep myself suicidal thoughts myself. But if you think it would prevent suicide or help you, why not? Go ahead and tell.

 

[meowwww]

I dont want to make my family and friends worried, so I keep myself suicidal thoughts myself. But if you think it would prevent suicide or help you, why not? Go ahead and tell.

I guess I just feel like it's too much. like what's a group of teenagers supposed to do with that? what if they feel guilty? I don't want to make them feel like shit over something that has nothing to do with them.

 

[roommate]

I think it is okay to get some attention, you're probably going through a lot.

 

[forgottenfantasywrt]

I want to tell my friends how suicidal I am. I want them to stop me. I want them to convince me I'm loved, to stay with me and hold me and listen to me cry. it's selfish, because I think no amount of affection could ever convince me that the love is real. the more I open up, the less I trust in people's care. I guess I'm just fucked

it's worth a try at the very least i think. Hope you feel better

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Welcome to SaSu!

I'm sorry you have to go through this.

Imo you r suicidal bc of loneliness (and a lack of love) and not bc you actually wanna die.

"Attention seeking" may not solve the issue long term. May I ask how old you are?

 

[wonderfulheaven]

speaking out about it in my experience is how i found solace in someone. i'm still suicidal but you never know who is out there that will want to help you make living a bit more bearable. wouldn't hurt to try imo

 

[dontwakemeup]

I want to tell my friends how suicidal I am. I want them to stop me. I want them to convince me I'm loved, to stay with me and hold me and listen to me cry. it's selfish, because I think no amount of affection could ever convince me that the love is real. the more I open up, the less I trust in people's care. I guess I'm just fucked

I think if your friends love you, you should call them. They are your friends, you should be able to tell them anything!

 

[struggles_inc]

I would not recommend that, honestly. They either would start walking on eggshells around you, making you feel even more broken, or they'd just think you're weird… In my experience, people either overreact or give a half-assed reaction to that.

 

[Reflection]

After telling my ex gf and sister about how I feel and they didn't really give a fuck or thought I was just being manipulative or some shit.

Basically no one cares until it's too late and even then they may not care at all. That's something you may have to make peace with if you're set on commiting suicide.

 

[meowwww]

Welcome to SaSu!

I'm sorry you have to go through this.

Imo you r suicidal bc of loneliness (and a lack of love) and not bc you actually wanna die.

"Attention seeking" may not solve the issue long term. May I ask how old you are?

i'm 18. i think loneliness plays a part, but bipolar and sexual trauma are the main reasons I'm seeking suicide specifically. I don't think people come back from stuff like this. I definitely don't think I'm strong enough

 

[divinemistress36]

i'm 18. i think loneliness plays a part, but bipolar and sexual trauma are the main reasons I'm seeking suicide specifically. I don't think people come back from stuff like this. I definitely don't think I'm strong enough

Have you done emdr therapy? Im starting that soon for my trauma could be worth looking into?