I want to take my life this week

[Tintypographer]

I've given myself anno.win situation but that's how most of my life is. If I can't find peace this week without some sort of cognitive rationalization or "seeing the bright side" or "realizing the little things in life have meaning". If I can't feel better without "just do it" or some other navy seal style "just take the pain" I am going to take.my life with charcoal carbon monoxide. I have a small shed and will tape it up, I have a battery powered Ryobi hand blower and have some finely ground charcoal. I have it all planned. I'm not at all looking for someone to talk to, I'm not crying for help, my only search would be to find some way to completely change my living status without any major shift and just have a better job and fewer people depending on me without any pressure or having to say no. If that doesn't change, at the end of the week I'll be able to say no by default.

 

[DeathMarch66]

Firstly I'd like to say whatever you decide to do I wish you the best. I'm sorry for your pain, suffering, and your situation. However, completely serious suggestion, have you thought about maybe trying to get a Xanax prescription? I think it might help with your perspective of the situation significantly. Regardless whatever you decide like I said earlier, I wish you the best, safe travels, thank you!

 

[gaeulfeels]

I'm deeply sorry to hear that. You didn't deserve this and I completely understand how you feel. I hope that u find something that makes you change ur mind, u deserve to be happy

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best with your plans, it's very much understandable wishing to finally be free from this awful world.

 

[Tintypographer]

I have my plans worked out. Taking my kid on a college visit, not telling work I'm even going and I may leave the phone on mute all day Friday. When I get back I'll go to sleep for the last time Friday night not answering any emails, not responding to anyone at work who need anything and leaving no reason at all. Nothing will matter finally!!

 

[Tintypographer]

If nothing changes for me then tomorrow will be my last full day alive. I spent the day reading about things like stock buybacks to help increase shareholder value, cutting employees to increase profits and the pressure to destroy public education. I'm convinced that society doesn't matter and the world will continue as will the universe without remembering I existed in 200 years or so. There will be a larger population, more angry people and more people being used by smaller groups to earn money and increase profits. And I won't have mattered at all. It's comforting to go. Tomorrow I will spend with my daughter visiting a college. Her college is paid for and then I'll be gone. It's very comforting.

 

[nosoul]

If nothing changes for me then tomorrow will be my last full day alive. I spent the day reading about things like stock buybacks to help increase shareholder value, cutting employees to increase profits and the pressure to destroy public education. I'm convinced that society doesn't matter and the world will continue as will the universe without remembering I existed in 200 years or so. There will be a larger population, more angry people and more people being used by smaller groups to earn money and increase profits. And I won't have mattered at all. It's comforting to go. Tomorrow I will spend with my daughter visiting a college. Her college is paid for and then I'll be gone. It's very comforting.

What method are you using? Sorry that it has come to this point for you:(

 

[Tintypographer]

Logging off for the final time. I'll not be back. I'm done. There is nothing worth living for period. Life is just one big pile of bureaucratic crap that doesn't matter. Logging out to never be again. Will be gone tomorrow and I'm glad. No goodbyes to family and no reason other than here. My only purpose in life is to justify crap that will have no meaning in 10 years let alone 500, I hate relationships and hate where I am and hate the idea of reframing. I'm comfortable in leaving and have no intent to come back. Have everything ready, one last trip with one of my kids then no more days.

 

[Valky]

I am so incredibly sorry for that pain that life has brought to you.

I really hope your kid will get the support they need. :( I wish them all the best.

Safe travels to you and I hope everything goes well for you, no matter what you decide.

 

[Fraggle77]

Logging off for the final time. I'll not be back. I'm done. There is nothing worth living for period. Life is just one big pile of bureaucratic crap that doesn't matter. Logging out to never be again. Will be gone tomorrow and I'm glad. No goodbyes to family and no reason other than here. My only purpose in life is to justify crap that will have no meaning in 10 years let alone 500, I hate relationships and hate where I am and hate the idea of reframing. I'm comfortable in leaving and have no intent to come back. Have everything ready, one last trip with one of my kids then no more days.

I wish you the best and a peaceful crossover. I hope you're not doing this in anger or frustration as to me your post seems this way. Take care

 

[Letgo]

I hope you have a peaceful journey. You are beung thought of.

 

[Tintypographer]

My name is K. I am tintypographer's widow. My husband took his own life. He was a father, a successful man, a husband and a person with severe untreatable depression. I have read many of his writings and his journals and postings on here and other places. At the end he was very fixated on someone from an organizatin called fix the 26 which I don't want to even understand. I have now lost my daughter and my husband to suicide

Hard to treat depression and suicidal ideation are two of the least understood and most misaligned diagnosed in the world of suicide. For the numbers of these suicides to come down we must address mental health on a planet with increasing population, decreasing resources and increasing pressure to consider each human to be a resource. We will not decrease these numbers if these issues are not prioritized.


TO THE MODERATORS. PLEASE CLOSE MY LATE HUSBAND'S ACCOUNT ON THIS SITE. I DO NOT WANT TO RESORT TO LEGAL ACTION BUT I WILL IF NEEDED. I AM HIS WIDOW AND HIS WILL SPECIFIES THAT HIS AFFAIRS AND POSESSIONS ARE IN MY CARE. THANK YOU