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Dried_Ink
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- Aug 1, 2022
- 44
Two years ago I took a lethal shot of fentanyl and overdosed but I was found and resuscitated. I felt so defeated when I woke up to the EMTs, my parents, and the cops standing over me. Now that I know how easy it is to end my life with this method, it's been an obsession of mine in one form or another over the last few years. Drifting off into death was so peaceful. There was no pain, no SI to overcome, and there was nothingness between when I took the shot and woke up after being hit with narcan. It was literally like going to sleep. It eliminated all fear that I had surrounding death. I think about dying every day now. It gives me peace to know that my death will likely be by my own hand if I'm able to procure a few simple materials again and make sure that I'm not found this time. There's an end in sight to this pain that I feel.