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I don't have a lot of money, I don't have access to guns easily, I don't have access to my medication because of previous attempts of od, please I'm desperate can someone tell me a way to die without pain that I can access easily.
 
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can't wait to ctb
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Hanging.
 
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I wish for the same thing, I find it extremely cruel how we cannot just have the option to easily and peacefully cease existing in a guaranteed way, to me it really would be such a relief to be able to just fall into an eternal sleep. But anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.
 
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notforl0ng

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Sodium nitrite seems to be the way. As long as it's the real deal and 95-99% purity. You take an anti-emetic (easily prescribed from a doctor) routine, some OTC painkillers, and something for your anxiety and the worst you seem to experience is a fast heart rate and the realization that you're going to pass out and die within half an hour. There's lots of time to reverse the situation, but it seems to be the most foolproof way to me as long as I can keep it in my system. I just ordered it this morning and it should be three weeks.

I don't think any suicide method is genuinely easy. Maybe shooting yourself during a manic episode, I imagine that's how a lot of them go down in the US.

Hanging can be done anywhere in the world with basic materials but it takes some extreme finesse to pull off. It's not as easy as people make it out to sound. There's basically an exact way to do it, and if you don't do it that exact way you're going to be in extreme pain. I had to get absolutely wasted to get the guts to lean into the rope and I wasn't able to do it with the precision I needed.

My advice if you're worried about living in a house of people, just take a bus to the edge of town (or walk, lots of time to think about what you're going to do) and into the woods. Or wilderness of any kind. Make sure it's as late at night as you can possibly make it. You're taking your own life, there's nothing after it, so making a long trip to get to where you can't be disturbed isn't a bad thing. You also have plenty of time to consider if killing yourself is something you actually want to do.
 
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I don't think there is a peaceful way to ctb
 
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Sodium nitrite seems to be the way. As long as it's the real deal and 95-99% purity. You take an anti-emetic (easily prescribed from a doctor) routine, some OTC painkillers, and something for your anxiety and the worst you seem to experience is a fast heart rate and the realization that you're going to pass out and die within half an hour. There's lots of time to reverse the situation, but it seems to be the most foolproof way to me as long as I can keep it in my system. I just ordered it this morning and it should be three weeks.

I don't think any suicide method is genuinely easy. Maybe shooting yourself during a manic episode, I imagine that's how a lot of them go down in the US.

Hanging can be done anywhere in the world with basic materials but it takes some extreme finesse to pull off. It's not as easy as people make it out to sound. There's basically an exact way to do it, and if you don't do it that exact way you're going to be in extreme pain. I had to get absolutely wasted to get the guts to lean into the rope and I wasn't able to do it with the precision I needed.

My advice if you're worried about living in a house of people, just take a bus to the edge of town (or walk, lots of time to think about what you're going to do) and into the woods. Or wilderness of any kind. Make sure it's as late at night as you can possibly make it. You're taking your own life, there's nothing after it, so making a long trip to get to where you can't be disturbed isn't a bad thing. You also have plenty of time to consider if killing yourself is something you actually want to do.
Hi, I'm new here so sorry if this is inappropriate.

Would you share where you ordered the SN?
Edit: I see I'm not really supposed to ask for sources, so feel free to be as vague as is necessary.
 
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notforl0ng

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Feb 19, 2024
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Hi, I'm new here so sorry if this is inappropriate.

Would you share where you ordered the SN?
I normally would but I've read that law enforcement do go on this site to try and track down suppliers for it lol. Not saying you are, but I'd feel pretty bad if I got the last method of getting it in North America blown up.

To help you find it yourself: lurk on this site, pay attention to the abbreviation that people refer to the supplier as. Then google "buy sodium nitrite" and try to put two and two together. Otherwise you might be able to find someone else on here willing to straight up tell you if you ask around. I'm new here too so I'm not sure if there's repercussions for outing a source to a brand new account, I'm sorry :aw:
 
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Aug 11, 2023
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Sodium nitrite seems to be the way. As long as it's the real deal and 95-99% purity. You take an anti-emetic (easily prescribed from a doctor) routine, some OTC painkillers, and something for your anxiety and the worst you seem to experience is a fast heart rate and the realization that you're going to pass out and die within half an hour. There's lots of time to reverse the situation, but it seems to be the most foolproof way to me as long as I can keep it in my system. I just ordered it this morning and it should be three weeks.

I don't think any suicide method is genuinely easy. Maybe shooting yourself during a manic episode, I imagine that's how a lot of them go down in the US.

Hanging can be done anywhere in the world with basic materials but it takes some extreme finesse to pull off. It's not as easy as people make it out to sound. There's basically an exact way to do it, and if you don't do it that exact way you're going to be in extreme pain. I had to get absolutely wasted to get the guts to lean into the rope and I wasn't able to do it with the precision I needed.

My advice if you're worried about living in a house of people, just take a bus to the edge of town (or walk, lots of time to think about what you're going to do) and into the woods. Or wilderness of any kind. Make sure it's as late at night as you can possibly make it. You're taking your own life, there's nothing after it, so making a long trip to get to where you can't be disturbed isn't a bad thing. You also have plenty of time to consider if killing yourself is something you actually want to do.
Yeah I looked into it and it seems to be what I'm looking for, although with a quick search it seems I can buy 1kg of 96> pure sodium nitrite easily (at least in eu), idk if it's because it's a different kind of sodium nitrite or if it's just something people can get there hands on easily?
 
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Yeah I looked into it and it seems to be what I'm looking for, although with a quick search it seems I can buy 1kg of 96> pure sodium nitrite easily (at least in eu), idk if it's because it's a different kind of sodium nitrite or if it's just something people can get there hands on easily?
Make absolutely sure it's sodium nitrite and not nitrate. NaNO2 is what you're looking for. I don't think nitrate will do anything except raise your blood pressure lol.

I wouldn't be surprised if you can buy a kilo of it in eu though, your laws are a lot more lax across the board in a lot of countries.

I just had to pay $40 to have 50g of it ordered to Canada. It's basically all but banned here because a hotel chef was selling it to people with the express purpose of assisting suicide
 
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Sodium nitrite seems to be the way. As long as it's the real deal and 95-99% purity. You take an anti-emetic (easily prescribed from a doctor) routine, some OTC painkillers, and something for your anxiety and the worst you seem to experience is a fast heart rate and the realization that you're going to pass out and die within half an hour. There's lots of time to reverse the situation, but it seems to be the most foolproof way to me as long as I can keep it in my system. I just ordered it this morning and it should be three weeks.

You got that right! We use guns here it's peaceful no pain not so ever it's just I have to learn how to shoot lol 😂 I already have mine!! I was reading about SN and it's kind of nasty the way vomiting goes! I'm thinking shotgun or jumping into a river
I don't think any suicide method is genuinely easy. Maybe shooting yourself during a manic episode, I imagine that's how a lot of them go down in the US.

Hanging can be done anywhere in the world with basic materials but it takes some extreme finesse to pull off. It's not as easy as people make it out to sound. There's basically an exact way to do it, and if you don't do it that exact way you're going to be in extreme pain. I had to get absolutely wasted to get the guts to lean into the rope and I wasn't able to do it with the precision I needed.

My advice if you're worried about living in a house of people, just take a bus to the edge of town (or walk, lots of time to think about what you're going to do) and into the woods. Or wilderness of any kind. Make sure it's as late at night as you can possibly make it. You're taking your own life, there's nothing after it, so making a long trip to get to where you can't be disturbed isn't a bad thing. You also have plenty of time to consider if killing yourself is something you actually want to do.
 
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I wanna kill myself painfully with a Rope.
 
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Something wrong with the forum! I replied to you and look where is my comment at?! Earlier it doubled the replies so I think there is an error somewhere
 
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notforl0ng

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Feb 19, 2024
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Something wrong with the forum! I replied to you and look where is my comment at?! Earlier it doubled the replies so I think there is an error somewhere
I saw the reply it showed up in the quote haha. Just formatting fuckery probably.

I'm jealous of you guys and your easy access guns man. This whole thing would be a lot less of a performance. Ordering some sketchy shit from Ukraine for a chance to die that isn't even 99% is fucked. Gotta have a backup plan to my backup plan lol. Can't have shit in Canada

YouTube can show you how to load and operate any gun in two minutes or less ;)
 
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I saw the reply it showed up in the quote haha. Just formatting fuckery probably.

I'm jealous of you guys and your easy access guns man. This whole thing would be a lot less of a performance. Ordering some sketchy shit from Ukraine for a chance to die that isn't even 99% is fucked. Gotta have a backup plan to my backup plan lol. Can't have shit in Canada

YouTube can show you how to load and operate any gun in two minutes or less ;)
You can't get a gun there? When I went to get it ( they looked at me from head to toe and said why a beautiful young lady needs the gun for?) so I told them to protect my beauty lol 😂 of course that's not why but anyways within two days they called me to get it.. it's in my car I just need to watch YouTube and learn.. thank you so much for the resources I honestly never thought about YouTube
I wanna kill myself painfully with a Rope.

Why? Are you angry?
 
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notforl0ng

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You can't get a gun there? When I went to get it ( they looked at me from head to toe and said why a beautiful young lady needs the gun for?) so I told them to protect my beauty lol 😂 of course that's not why but anyways within two days they called me to get it.. it's in my car I just need to watch YouTube and learn.. thank you so much for the resources I honestly never thought about YouTube
You can, but you need a license + the background checks get flagged for people with histories of suicide attempts and mental illness which I have both of lol. SN would be quicker and cheaper for me, I'm tired as hell and ready to skidaddle.

Which gun did you get?
 
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You can't get a gun there? When I went to get it ( they looked at me from head to toe and said why a beautiful young lady needs the gun for?) so I told them to protect my beauty lol 😂 of course that's not why but anyways within two days they called me to get it.. it's in my car I just need to watch YouTube and learn.. thank you so much for the resources I honestly never thought about YouTube


Why? Are you angry?
It means IT IS working i failed 6 attempts and i need to Go asap
 
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I have to rush IT my life IS over and wont improve
 
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You can, but you need a license + the background checks get flagged for people with histories of suicide attempts and mental illness which I have both of lol. SN would be quicker and cheaper for me, I'm tired as hell and ready to skidaddle.

Which gun did you get?

For some reason, I'm anxious about sn and it's not really available in the US anyway.. I got the Bolt-Action Rifles And I'm not sure how to shoot myself it's too long
 
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For some reason, I'm anxious about sn and it's not really available in the US anyway.. I got the Bolt-Action Rifles And I'm not sure how to shoot myself it's too long
AIM for the brainstemm and pull the Trigger simple as that
 
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notforl0ng

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For some reason, I'm anxious about sn and it's not really available in the US anyway.. I got the Bolt-Action Rifles And I'm not sure how to shoot myself it's too long
In the mouth and with an unsocked toe to pull the trigger would work, you'd just have to be very steady with your toe because some triggers take a fair amount of pressure to pull and you could move the rifle from the intended spot. The good news is bolt action rifles are super easy to operate and figure out.

In the direct center of your mouth and pointing slightly up. 45 degree angle is best, but with a rifle you're probably blowing your brains out no matter what. The shock of the bullet going through your head is going to instantly kill you. Some people can say there's a chance of surviving but it's microscopic. Easily the best way to CTB
 
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In the mouth and with an unsocked toe to pull the trigger would work, you'd just have to be very steady with your toe because some triggers take a fair amount of pressure to pull and you could move the rifle from the intended spot. The good news is bolt action rifles are super easy to operate and figure out.

In the direct center of your mouth and pointing slightly up. 45 degree angle is best, but with a rifle you're probably blowing your brains out no matter what. The shock of the bullet going through your head is going to instantly kill you. Some people can say there's a chance of surviving but it's microscopic. Easily the best way to CTB
Thank you so much! That makes it easier I was also told there is no chance if survivor with the one I have… I just have to go far away from home I don't want my family to see me I know I will look scary I can't even imagine but who cares I'll be dead… it's the most peaceful way I can think of I can't do nasty drinks at all
 
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1.) Partial hanging from doorknob
2.) Jump
3.) Subway train (don't do this unless the other two are gone)
 
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notforl0ng

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1.) Partial hanging from doorknob
2.) Jump
3.) Subway train (don't do this unless the other two are gone)
I'd recommend a freight train instead as a last resort, unless you want to create a daisy chain of PTSD related suicides from the innocent driver and bystanders witnessing you getting turned into red mist :haha:
 
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