I want to hook-up w someone before I CTB

[venin]

I want to have sex once more, cuddle, have some good pillow talk for the last time. But I'd hate hurting someone. Maybe I'll go to a different town. Idk. Maybe I won't even do it.

Have you thought about this?

Idk man. It's just heartbreaking to reach the point that we have… fucking hell…

 

[lebrodude]

Yeah, I've had that thought so I can see where you're coming from.

Ultimately though, I just don't have the energy. I don't even know how I'd go about it now. Before I was unwell I was quite a charming guy and could find female interest relatively easily. Now though ? Not a chance. That guys already dead.

 

[Anon7b8]

Yes i have, it's human nature to want to procreate when our mind knows we're facing death. Plus i think it would lessen the panic once we do make the attempt.

 

[venin]

Yeah, I've had that thought so I can see where you're coming from.

Ultimately though, I just don't have the energy. I don't even know how I'd go about it now. Before I was unwell I was quite a charming guy and could find female interest relatively easily. Now though ? Not a chance. That guys already dead.

I'm sorry dude… I'm really sorry

I still could do it but idk if I'd not feel worse about Ctb/ing after

 

[dialogos]

I'm sorry dude… I'm really sorry

I still could do it but idk if I'd not feel worse about Ctb/ing after

Its your bucketlist, do it.

 

[Waterr]

To anyone who wishes to do this in the thread, but believes they cant or dont have the energy to anymore: DO IT! Its something you want to experience before CTBing. Its harder to CTB with any sort of regret, and struggling at that stage would be near enough torment. Check things off and do what you want to do, youll find it easier to rest peacefully among the many others who followed through with there CTB plans. Just try not make any connection with whoever you have a one night stand with itd be hard on them after you CTB.

 

[BornByGhosts]

nah, i'd need to find someone to love and loves me, else it's meaningless
and if I loved them I don't think I'd wanna break their heart like that

 

[venin]

To anyone who wishes to do this in the thread, but believes they cant or dont have the energy to anymore: DO IT! Its something you want to experience before CTBing. Its harder to CTB with any sort of regret, and struggling at that stage would be near enough torment. Check things off and do what you want to do, youll find it easier to rest peacefully among the many others who followed through with there CTB plans. Just try not make any connection with whoever you have a one night stand with itd be hard on them after you CTB.

I perfectly agree. No way on earth would I go deeper than a ons.

Ty for your message

nah, i'd need to find someone to love and loves me, else it's meaningless
and if I loved them I don't think I'd wanna break their heart like that

That's also what I want but I'm beginning to think I'm beyond saving so that's not really possible. & I really don't wanna engage in something that I cannot sustain.

Although if I had the luck to meet someone who would love me the way I need I'd may not wanna ctb anymore…

But I have not until now & the chances are really slim given my current state.
I probably will..

 

[Spiritual survivor]

From my experience, good sex just makes u want to continue living

 

[venin]

From my experience, good sex just makes u want to continue living

Maybe this will be the push that I need.

Also she

 

[Das Nichts]

If you aim for a ONS I don't think you will do much damage.

We all know this hybrid moments.

 

[that_guy2611]

Can relate, it's something i want to do but if i did then i'd probably not want to ctb. A hooker just won't cut it though

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I have thought about it but I don´t think I am good enough looking anymore, had considered a prostitute but tried that once and didn´t feel anything I always used to have sex with girls I was deeply in love with and in a relationship with so I want the kisses and cuddling as much and sometimes more than the sex and you don´t get that from a prostitute.

 

[conarc]

I think many of us would love to have that experience again before leaving, yes.

 

[venin]

I think many of us would love to have that experience again before leaving, yes.

do it

Can relate, it's something i want to do but if i did then i'd probably not want to ctb. A hooker just won't cut it though

It won't. I know…

If you aim for a ONS I don't think you will do much damage.

We all know this hybrid moments.

Hybrid moments?

 

[jellie]

I understand where you are coming from. as i fall further and further in my spiral, i crave being loved and being held more than ever.

 

[theSquid]

If anyone came up to me with that problem i would give them what they needed in a heartbeat. I would hate nothing more than to see someone cbt without having that last loving experience first.

 

[tpboy]

If i were you i would have other things on my mind atm.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Utilize the services of a pro. No messy feelings get in the way. Just business.

 

[hetwordtmeteveel]

Me too I have a friend but she is 15 rrrrr

 

[venin]

I understand where you are coming from. as i fall further and further in my spiral, i crave being loved and being held more than ever.

I think a lot of us have suffered our whole lives from the lack of love. If we would have had that, the stable, secure, unconditional one, half of us wouldn't be here

Me too I have a friend but she is 15 rrrrr

If she's a friend it would hurt her..

 

[GettingOut]

I think a lot of us have suffered our whole lives from the lack of love. If we would have had that, the stable, secure, unconditional one, half of us wouldn't be here

Totally agree with you! I feel that I need more love than people give and because I don't want to be needy, I think the world would be better without me.

I also thought about having a ONS before I go. But it has to be NSA cause I don't want to hurt someone emotionally. But because you know it is your last, you might have bigger expectations and end up being more disappointed. It might be safer to get an escort that you have contacted in the past. Then you know the vibe is there, but it is still only business as usual.