Venting I want to go so badly

[Oguzok]

I want to do it so badly, two things that stop me is struggles with getting SN and my five animals I have to take care of. My father is at work all the time so I'm the only one who takes care of them, I can't give them away because they are family animals and not just mine... Except for the parrot, I can give him away, but unfortunately I live in a small town, I I'm sure no one here knows how to take care of parrots... I don't want him to fall into the wrong hands.

I honestly so tired of them..i can't take of myself not talking about them. But I don't have other choice so

I love them but I wish to be free from them(