i want to fucking runaway and die i got no future.

[FakeNewYorker]

im lost. i feel i screwed up all my posibilites of a good future. i keep coming back to this site when i need attention, i dont care about my family i dont have any friends. i dont care about my career bc. i always thoutght id die. i need to die soon. i want my life to not depend on me anymore bc i keep making screwed up desitions bc i cant sit down and study. i dont want to work either. i cant do anything and i just want to live in this vegetative state. it kills my family but what can i do ? i dont care about them, i think im narcisistic. my ego is too big and i dont wanna push myself to accomplish anything in life bc im a shit person and an asshole. my ex the only guy who ever loved me is tired of me and told me to not contact him anymore. he was giving me hope somehow but i was also using him to feel better about myself. i dont know shit about life. and i wanna screw myself over and over again .

 

[Crow_88]

I wouldn't run away. You'll just make it way worse. I tried it and I just ended up right back where I started with things much worse. I get you though, just alienating everyone around you. I do the same thing