@Akeolodo I think that's perfectly normal. This struggling phase can provide benefits should it lead to something better, but if it doesn't, it'll eventually wear itself off. There might remain some form of ridiculous hope, but you'll see it for what it is one day, and then you'll know you're broken and it'll become easier.
It doesn't matter if you have a family when you have lost all hope. Your family cannot live your life for you.
Yes, but I think what she is saying is that there'll come a point when you're so dead that you'll be able to see past them. They'll no longer be a hindrance and you'll be ready.
It's terrible to think that I believe that if I had money I'd be able to get myself together. It's within the realms of possibility that I *could* turn things around but I feel I no longer have the energy to even try to rebuild my life. I genuinely can't decide if I want to live for another 40 years.
Yeah, I think some of us are forced to kill ourselves out of circumstances which could be remedied. Question is, of course, when is it a pipe dream? You mentioned money. With the lack of energy and brain fog it's near impossible to make some. And while it could improve my situation, it actually wouldn't fix it. Aliens with superior technology otoh could, but are unlikely to show up. Medical science might, as well, but depending on one's age and length of struggle it becomes pointless waiting for one's life to start as an elderly. This goes on and on, but ultimately, one rationalises these ideas and it becomes easier to ctb than live on delusions.
One size doesn't fit all though, so who knows?
