I want to die but I don't want my last moments to be in agonizing pain.

[colddarkloner]

I want to die that's for sure. I've known that for years. But I don't want my last moments to be filled with pain. Some pain and/or discomfort is fine but I don't want to be screaming in agony, drowning in that instinctive fear. I just want to be brave for once. I also want to be selfish for once and not think about other people. I have lived my whole life doing things for other people and living for other people because I love them. But if they love me they will let me die. They will understand that death will bring me peace and happiness. Surely if you love someone truly, you'd want their pain to end? I would never want someone I love to suffer for my own benefit. And yet I get guilted into living.

So once I pick a time and date, a plan, I am not telling anyone. I will leave a note in my flat and that be it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as I also just wish to be gone, I wish for a painless death free from suffering so I can finally be at peace. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[diy-event]

I want to die that's for sure. I've known that for years. But I don't want my last moments to be filled with pain. Some pain and/or discomfort is fine but I don't want to be screaming in agony, drowning in that instinctive fear. I just want to be brave for once. I also want to be selfish for once and not think about other people. I have lived my whole life doing things for other people and living for other people because I love them. But if they love me they will let me die. They will understand that death will bring me peace and happiness. Surely if you love someone truly, you'd want their pain to end? I would never want someone I love to suffer for my own benefit. And yet I get guilted into living.

So once I pick a time and date, a plan, I am not telling anyone. I will leave a note in my flat and that be it.

I agree with you - no one wants to end their life with excruciating pain. Other than making an application for accompanied suicide, there are very choices that guarantee a painless death. I have decided to go with something that if done right keeps the pain short.

I hope you find peace and a peaceful path to it

 

[LostLily]

I want to die that's for sure. I've known that for years. But I don't want my last moments to be filled with pain. Some pain and/or discomfort is fine but I don't want to be screaming in agony, drowning in that instinctive fear. I just want to be brave for once. I also want to be selfish for once and not think about other people. I have lived my whole life doing things for other people and living for other people because I love them. But if they love me they will let me die. They will understand that death will bring me peace and happiness. Surely if you love someone truly, you'd want their pain to end? I would never want someone I love to suffer for my own benefit. And yet I get guilted into living.

So once I pick a time and date, a plan, I am not telling anyone. I will leave a note in my flat and that be it.

This post feels so relatable

 

[colddarkloner]

I agree with you - no one wants to end their life with excruciating pain. Other than making an application for accompanied suicide, there are very choices that guarantee a painless death. I have decided to go with something that if done right keeps the pain short.

I hope you find peace and a peaceful path to it

Unfortunately I love in England so accompanied suicide isn't an option

 

[RiverOfLife]

I get it. After all the pain in life it's not fair to have to go through more pain at the end.

 

[diy-event]

Unfortunately I love in England so accompanied suicide isn't an option

If you can make it, Switzerland, which is how I would do it if I had a choice, CTB is free though you have to arrange for you own cremation. They take foreigners