I want to die ASAP

[fieryending]

I don't have anything to keep me going anymore. I suffer to much. I really want to die as soon as possible but catching the bus is so hard it feels impossible. I don't want to make any attempt at all unless I know it will work. I want to die, its my time to go. I don't even get to have something as simple as being an adult when I turned 18, my guardian decided to extend her guardianship over me to until I'm 19 while I was in a mental hospital. She also somehow got me a seriously mentally ill designation which is bullshit. I don't get to graduate highschool, I'm a fool for ever thinking I would go to college, and I'm a retard for thinking that when you turn 18 you get to be an adult. I just want to cbt, I don't even care how painful the method is anymore. I was going to just run away and somehow figure out to die while on the road, but I don't think that will work anymore. I'm fucking done.

 

[ChristopherWalken]

Well F college anyway, it costs too much unless you are certain what you want to do. The road journey thing sounds cooler, although I wouldn't advise running away unless you have a place to go. There are people out there that lurk and will put you in an even worse hell, even if you think you hate yourself enough to risk that it's not worth it. If your guardian had not extended their guardianship another year what were you going to do?

 

[Dawn0071111]

Im sorry you have hit such a wall.of despair at such a young age. It just proves life can be unbearable at any stage.... i know you feel like ctb is the way out, it may or may not be & your just in so much pain right now & need relief. I hope you find it soon hun...