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coltact
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- Jun 15, 2020
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I am going to try hanging myself tonight. I have decided on a neck tie and have a very sturdy metal bar in this guest room's wardrobe that is whispering my name in the dark echo of this dark, cold hotel room.
I just wanted to tell you guys how much I have enjoyed being part of this community. It is so nice to feel a level of empathy from randomers across the world going through similar situations to myself. I am just currently listening to music, having a drink, a smoke. I am writing out my final goodbye letters to my many siblings (I'm 1 of 7) and rest of the family, I know they will suffer for this. I know they are strong enough to survive.
I never wanted it to come to this, I wanted to get 'better'. I wanted to heal my mind. Unfortunately things have only gotten worse...
To all I have hurt along the way, I'm sorry. To all that have hurt me... I forgive you wholeheartedly. I know the source of all evil is pain...
If I succeed tonight.. see you all on the other side
peace
Jacob, 23, from England x
I just wanted to tell you guys how much I have enjoyed being part of this community. It is so nice to feel a level of empathy from randomers across the world going through similar situations to myself. I am just currently listening to music, having a drink, a smoke. I am writing out my final goodbye letters to my many siblings (I'm 1 of 7) and rest of the family, I know they will suffer for this. I know they are strong enough to survive.
I never wanted it to come to this, I wanted to get 'better'. I wanted to heal my mind. Unfortunately things have only gotten worse...
To all I have hurt along the way, I'm sorry. To all that have hurt me... I forgive you wholeheartedly. I know the source of all evil is pain...
If I succeed tonight.. see you all on the other side
peace
Jacob, 23, from England x