LifeSucks39
Student
- Feb 14, 2020
- 182
I feel like this is the most reliable way to do it, we don´t know how we feel on the date we picked (although respect to those who can follow through with a date) but what I mean is on that specific date you might not feel as low as you would another.Hope some day I feel so low and depressed I do it impulsively
I feel like this is the most reliable way to do it, we don´t know how we feel on the date we picked (although respect to those who can follow through with a date) but what I mean is on that specific date you might not feel as low as you would another.
I feel I need to feel extra low when the day comes to motivate me to actually do it on impulse, even though every day is a nightmare for me I get those days where it´s extra bad and that is when I should be attempting. And also even though I would like to plan a whole day that ends with me ctb but I think it will be done on impulse when the time comes.
Survival Instinct??self injury? suicidal ideation?
Before I got my will (primarily the guardianship bit) put together, I was terrified of dying or accidentally being killed in some way. Now that I've got it all figured out, I welcome it every day. But it's just my luck that it doesn't happen.Sometimes I feel it would be easier to hire someone to kill you .... Is that a plausible method ? What do u guys feel
Pay an assassin to kill you, hard to come by sometimesWhat should I do?
I would love to have this happen. Just have them take me out when I'm sleeping or not paying attention randomly.Sometimes I feel it would be easier to hire someone to kill you .... Is that a plausible method ? What do u guys feel
I know what you mean. I had an episode of excruciating pain nothing could relieve and I wished I had a gun then. I tried a rope around my neck but nothing to hang it on, and tried a plastic trash bag over my head but took it off as I couldn't stand that, breathing my own carbon diozide. I was so desperate but no way to do it at all.I feel like this is the most reliable way to do it, we don´t know how we feel on the date we picked (although respect to those who can follow through with a date) but what I mean is on that specific date you might not feel as low as you would another.
I feel I need to feel extra low when the day comes to motivate me to actually do it on impulse, even though every day is a nightmare for me I get those days where it´s extra bad and that is when I should be attempting. And also even though I would like to plan a whole day that ends with me ctb but I think it will be done on impulse when the time comes.