Venting I want to CTB because

[WorthlessTrash]

I want to CTB because

I am unable to accept the fact that I was not born female
I am unable to accept being less than 100% female
I am unable to go day to day without thinking about what life would be like for me if I was born the opposite sex
I am unable to cope with not having the desired body
I am unable to accept that I am not physically beautiful or pretty
I am unable to go a minute without being jealous of attractive, or even average looking people of the opposite sex
I cannot stand my body and the male sexual characteristics
I am unable to tolerate any aspect of being male
I am unable to enjoy my hobbies because I see people of the desired sex I wish I was also enjoying them
I am unable to desire sex or romance anymore
I am unable to feel anything but emptiness and sadness when I see women with their feminity and sexuality
I cannot stop ruminating on any of this

I am tired of this mediocre existence and body. I want to CTB so badly. It's all or nothing for me.

 

[jessisme]

I want to CTB because

I am unable to accept the fact that I was not born female
I am unable to accept being less than 100% female
I am unable to go day to day without thinking about what life would be like for me if I was born the opposite sex
I am unable to cope with not having the desired body
I am unable to accept that I am not physically beautiful or pretty
I am unable to go a minute without being jealous of attractive, or even average looking people of the opposite sex
I cannot stand my body and the male sexual characteristics
I am unable to tolerate any aspect of being male
I am unable to enjoy my hobbies because I see people of the desired sex I wish I was also enjoying them
I am unable to desire sex or romance anymore
I am unable to feel emptiness and sadness when I see women with their feminity and sexuality
I cannot stop ruminating on any of this

I am tired of this mediocre existence and body. I want to CTB so badly. It's all or nothing for me.

What's holding you back?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

What's holding you back?

From CTBing? Guilt, which i hope to overcome soon.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I want to CTB because

I am unable to accept the fact that I was not born female
I am unable to accept being less than 100% female
I am unable to go day to day without thinking about what life would be like for me if I was born the opposite sex
I am unable to cope with not having the desired body
I am unable to accept that I am not physically beautiful or pretty
I am unable to go a minute without being jealous of attractive, or even average looking people of the opposite sex
I cannot stand my body and the male sexual characteristics
I am unable to tolerate any aspect of being male
I am unable to enjoy my hobbies because I see people of the desired sex I wish I was also enjoying them
I am unable to desire sex or romance anymore
I am unable to feel emptiness and sadness when I see women with their feminity and sexuality
I cannot stop ruminating on any of this

I am tired of this mediocre existence and body. I want to CTB so badly. It's all or nothing for me.

The only person you need to convince of all these reasons is yourself.

 

[FuneralCry]

The unfortunate reality is that there is simply nothing fair about any of this. Being trapped in an existence that you hate day after day really can be torture and it really sounds like you have suffered a lot. I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.