i want to be in a hospital again.

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i miss the needles and tubes attached to my wrist, i liked the slight pain i had from moving with it and from my recent scars on my arms. i miss the sterile smell and the nausea and dizziness i felt when i got up. i miss feeling like i could forget about my life for a while. i miss rotting.

i want to be back there. i want to hear my heart beats again. i want to vomit out everything in my body again.

of course id rather be gone,
but i want to be in a hospital again.

i didnt have to worry, i didnt have to think about myself or my life. i felt alien and clean.

i want to be erased. i want to rot again. i want to be gone.


(not my image lol)