I want to attempt suicide but I don't feel like it.

[Yasuke]

I don't feel like doing anything really. Everything takes so much effort to me. 25 living at home with my parents still in college and unemployed. I could or should be kicked out under different circumstances but my parents haven't given up on me which adds to my futility or "depression".

My default is just lying down on my cell phone, masturbating, and listening to music, browsing the internet, gaming occasionally eating and drinking. It works for a while then I can ignore everything or cope with it until I hit a wall that everything is meaningless.

Eventually it gets boring and exhausting dealing with naysayers, mundaneness, suffering, hopelessness, and pointlessness. I don't want to live anymore not in a world like this but I still lack the resolve to die.

its paralyzing because I'm lazy and a procrastinator. I want to try CO because that seems like the easiest method for me to attempt but unless I'm pushed to the edge I don't act.

Nobody can do it for me but god I wish Euthanasia was real and painless that is offered for people who are too cowardly or not willing to act on dying.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

That sounds like an uncomfortable way to masturbate.

 

[RedDEE]

That sounds like an uncomfortable way to masturbate.

LOL! You made me spit water on my laptop, no shit..

 

[LastRide]

You don't sound suicidal, you sound depressed !

 

[Yasuke]

You don't sound suicidal, you sound depressed !

I understand that I'm passive but I don't want to live anymore. And I've already done some research on methods. All that's left is what's concrete. I guess I'm just looking for help or others that feel this way.

 

[RedDEE]

I understand that I'm passive but I don't want to live anymore. And I've already done some research on methods. All that's left is what's concrete. I guess I'm just looking for help or others that feel this way.

I feel the same way as you, man. I've always been this way. My life consists of playing video games, masturbating, and doing the bare minimal anyone asks of me. I'm lazy, and I don't care.. But I'm suicidal, too.

 

[Yasuke]

I feel the same way as you, man. I've always been this way. My life consists of playing video games, masturbating, and doing the bare minimal anyone asks of me. I'm lazy, and I don't care.. But I'm suicidal, too.

Yeah do you think youll do it one day and its just a matter of time. Because I can't see myself living a long life working and being suicidal

 

[RedDEE]

Yeah do you think youll do it one day and its just a matter of time. Because I can't see myself living a long life working and being suicidal

Umm, I might. It's a pretty hard thing to do. Our human brain completely evolved to survive. It's a hard instinct to fight.

 

[krsu]

once you get so depressed, nothing will bring you joy anymore... you will experience complete anhedonia :(

I wish i could still enjoy videogames and stuff, now all I do is think about suicide because its the only thing that fascinates me

 

[overcomingfear]

I'm almost the same. Can relate a lot

 

[Yasuke]

once you get so depressed, nothing will bring you joy anymore... you will experience complete anhedonia :(

I wish i could still enjoy videogames and stuff, now all I do is think about suicide because its the only thing that fascinates me

I don't enjoy it too much either. It's few and far between but now it's like to pass time.

 

[albino_elk]

Dude im trying to hang myself for weeks now. Every time i go to a tree i always find some reasons to live for ( i guess this is SI) man i hate this shit

 

[krsu]

I don't enjoy it too much either. It's few and far between but now it's like to pass time.

I wish i still had some sort of will to live, i miss having hobbies and stuff

 

[Superdeterminist]

I relate to this so much. I haven't the energy for anything anymore, but life forces you to move otherwise you suffer. Just want to get off.

 

[Mm80]

I don't feel like doing anything really. Everything takes so much effort to me. 25 living at home with my parents still in college and unemployed. I could or should be kicked out under different circumstances but my parents haven't given up on me which adds to my futility or "depression".

My default is just lying down on my cell phone, masturbating, and listening to music, browsing the internet, gaming occasionally eating and drinking. It works for a while then I can ignore everything or cope with it until I hit a wall that everything is meaningless.

Eventually it gets boring and exhausting dealing with naysayers, mundaneness, suffering, hopelessness, and pointlessness. I don't want to live anymore not in a world like this but I still lack the resolve to die.

its paralyzing because I'm lazy and a procrastinator. I want to try CO because that seems like the easiest method for me to attempt but unless I'm pushed to the edge I don't act.

Nobody can do it for me but god I wish Euthanasia was real and painless that is offered for people who are too cowardly or not willing to act on dying.

Does the masturbating help with the depression or is it just a distraction for you ?

 

[albino_elk]

Does the masturbating help with the depression or is it just a distraction for you ?

you live only to ask questions like this?

 

[Mm80]

you live only to ask questions like this?

No it was actually a genuine question as some people do masturbate, drink alcohol and take drugs as self medication when depressed. The op voluntarily gave this info and i was asking more about it.
I think your question was more bizarre tbh. Yes, the only thing keeping me alive is asking questions on this forum.

 

[albino_elk]

No it was actually a genuine question as some people do masturbate, drink alcohol and take drugs as self medication when depressed. The op voluntarily gave this info and i was asking more about it.
I think your question was more bizarre tbh. Yes, the only thing keeping me alive is asking questions on this forum.

I genuinely think that you fap from depressed people who talks about masturbation. But don't mind me sir

 

[Mm80]

I genuinely think that you fap from depressed people who talks about masturbation. But don't mind me sir

what does fap mean ?

what does fap mean ?

You dont know me so unless you have anything to back this up with id appreciate it if you kept your warped opinions to yourself. It was a genuine question like i said. You interpreted it wrong.

 

[albino_elk]

what does fap mean ?

You dont know me so unless you have anything to back this up with id appreciate it if you kept your warped opinions to yourself. It was a genuine question like i said. You interpreted it wrong.

Well then.. its okay. ^^ mb

 

[Remember_Me]

I don't feel like doing anything really. Everything takes so much effort to me. 25 living at home with my parents still in college and unemployed. I could or should be kicked out under different circumstances but my parents haven't given up on me which adds to my futility or "depression".

My default is just lying down on my cell phone, masturbating, and listening to music, browsing the internet, gaming occasionally eating and drinking. It works for a while then I can ignore everything or cope with it until I hit a wall that everything is meaningless.

Eventually it gets boring and exhausting dealing with naysayers, mundaneness, suffering, hopelessness, and pointlessness. I don't want to live anymore not in a world like this but I still lack the resolve to die.

its paralyzing because I'm lazy and a procrastinator. I want to try CO because that seems like the easiest method for me to attempt but unless I'm pushed to the edge I don't act.

Nobody can do it for me but god I wish Euthanasia was real and painless that is offered for people who are too cowardly or not willing to act on dying.

You sound like you don't think there's anything better in life so you're just settling for boring. The can't be arsed attitude is because you don't know any better. Mundaneness, hopelessness, pointlessness, same ole same ole. What has the world done to you, or are you expecting it to provide you with something? Sadly it doesn't work like that. You want better, do better. You just sound bored and lazy and you've got yourself in a rut and can't see anything else out there. When does college finish? Have you thought about studying abroad, some countries you can do it for free.

 

[Hanna Backer]

I don't feel like doing anything really. Everything takes so much effort to me. 25 living at home with my parents still in college and unemployed. I could or should be kicked out under different circumstances but my parents haven't given up on me which adds to my futility or "depression".

My default is just lying down on my cell phone, masturbating, and listening to music, browsing the internet, gaming occasionally eating and drinking. It works for a while then I can ignore everything or cope with it until I hit a wall that everything is meaningless.

Eventually it gets boring and exhausting dealing with naysayers, mundaneness, suffering, hopelessness, and pointlessness. I don't want to live anymore not in a world like this but I still lack the resolve to die.

é paralisante porque sou preguiçoso e procrastinador. Quero experimentar o CO porque parece o método mais fácil de tentar, mas, a menos que seja levado ao limite, não ajo.

Ninguém pode fazer isso por mim, mas Deus, eu gostaria que a eutanásia fosse real e indolor que é oferecida para pessoas que são muito covardes ou não estão dispostas a agir sobre a morte.
[/CITAR]
cara eu me vi no seu comentário, quando penso que minha vida depende de mim, o desespero me bate! Tenho 25 anos e também moro com minha mãe, mas não vou para a faculdade, desempregada, me auto-saboto o tempo todo, também sou uma especialista em procrastinação, tenho a ansiedade e milhares de pensamentos que me perturbam , nem faço mais planos para o futuro, Sn a caminho! que você encontre a paz de que precisa!

 

[mapletree]

Attempting suicide seems like it actually takes quite a bit of energy or emotional momentum