I want to apologize to everyone on here

[worldexploder]

Yes I want to CTB by jumping off the bridge but I was very crass to a lot of you who questioned wether or not it would work. Then I got very angry. I filly apologize and love you all. A lot of the things I said were just wrong. Like saying that everyone who gets pregnant is a criminal and vile. What I said about pregnant women was inexcusable. I wish I was aborted. That's were all the anger comes from. I have no right to take my own experiences and my own pain and shit on everyone. I also shouldn't berate people who question my methods. I have questioned many other people's methods as well.

I am so so so sorry you guys, y'all are like a family and I love y'all.

 

[Philip]

Yes I want to CTB by jumping off the bridge but I was very crass to a lot of you who questioned wether or not it would work. Then I got very angry. I filly apologize and love you all. A lot of the things I said were just wrong. Like saying that everyone who gets pregnant is a criminal and vile. What I said about pregnant women was inexcusable. I wish I was aborted. That's were all the anger comes from. I have no right to take my own experiences and my own pain and shit on everyone. I also shouldn't berate people who question my methods. I have questioned many other people's methods as well.

I am so so so sorry you guys, y'all are like a family and I love y'all.

You don't have to apologize. There are many strong emotion on here

 

[bigj75]

 

[Virgo]

Sentience is a curse, those that create more of it are either assholes, idiots, or naive.

 

[Schopenhauer]

No apology need, but if it makes you feel better, we can accept it. Life is hard. Society is making us prisoners. Lashing out every now and then is understandable. You'll get rid of your shackles eventually - the sooner the better.

 

[worldexploder]

I know when I'm wrong and I'm not afraid to admit it. Maybe I was scared because what y'all said about my plans to jump off the bridge were true. I had no right to say what I said tonight. I just want it to be over so fucking bad.

One thing that got to me was the fact that I said everyone who has children were vile and criminals. Then I realized that people on here actually had and in some cases lost children.

I don't know what to do anymore. I get so stuck in my own head. When I was saying all those nasty things I was thinking about my biomom. I wish I was aborted. That is no excuse to just loose my filter and talk like I don't have a soundness of mind.

Again I am truly sorry.

 

[worldexploder]

No apology need, but if it makes you feel better, we can accept it. Life is hard. Society is making us prisoners. Lashing out every now and then is understandable. You'll get rid of your shackles eventually - the sooner the better.

Thank you so much. I hate it when I loose my cool like that. You are right. Sometimes it's hard not to lose your cool when you want/need something so bad but it seems so far away.

People were right to point out the flaws in my plan. It is risky. I just hated to hear it. Doesn't give me the right to jump the gun or lash out at anyone.

 

[nzdarkshark]

~hug~

 

[worldexploder]

I hate the fact that I can be so insensitive. I was always known for talking before thinking about what I was saying. Even when I was sober.

 

[worldexploder]

~hug~

Hey thank you buddy. Hugs back.

 

[Lra888]

You never have to apologize about anything you post. Your views are completely valid. Being suicidal / being done with this fucking reality, society and it's people is an extreme human experience and no one on here is expected to adhere to some strict standard of decency or manners.

 

[Schopenhauer]

I hate the fact that I can be so insensitive. I was always known for talking before thinking about what I was saying. Even when I was sober.

At least you're self-aware. And not afraid to admit it. Too many people just lash out harder. Don't beat yourself up over it. You're one of the people here who I'd have a drink with :)

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

*hugs*

 

[worldexploder]

I had myself a good cry that I been holding in for along time. I don't want any sympathy becusse I know many of y'all do the same thing. I want to CTB so bad yet I can't find a way, a foolproof way at least. Y'all helped me understand that trying to drag my aunt into all this was wrong. And y'all helped me understand that what I said tonight was wrong. I always want to be a better person and don't want to hurt anyone.

Any anger that I showed tonight was directed towards the people that truly hurt me. No excuse. I wish I could lash out at my biomom for what she did to me but she "Madonned" herself to the poimt were nobody would believe me except for my dad and his side of the family. My aunt knows the truth!

Example - she treated me like dog shit yet treated my 3 half sibilings like gold. If I were them I wouldn't believe my side of the story. My biomoms eldest is 24 now. All 3 are huge successes because they had stability. When I was living with my tyrant of a "mother", it was like living in two separate households - one were kids were being nurtured and one were I was being abused. She won.

 

[worldexploder]

You never have to apologize about anything you post. Your views are completely valid. Being suicidal / being done with this fucking reality, society and it's people is an extreme human experience and no one on here is expected to adhere to some strict standard of decency or manners.

Thank you so much. You have no idea what that means to me.

 

[TAW122]

No need to apologize, we all need to vent at times and sometimes, things just become too much to bear and then it all just comes up after all the suppressed emotions.

 

[jaemus12]

Apology accepted.

Now on to the real issues, where are those humorous posts you promised me on Offtopic to cheer us up?

 

[Lifeisatrap]

I feel your pain. It's torture when you hate life with a passion and want so desperately to escape but can't.

 

[worldexploder]

Apology accepted.

Now on to the real issues, where are those humorous posts you promised me on Offtopic to cheer us up?

Haha. I promise I'll get to them!

 

[worldexploder]

I feel your pain. It's torture when you hate life with a passion and want so desperately to escape but can't.

Thanks. Ifs like being vetween a rock and a hard place man.

 

[worldexploder]

 

[Trashcan]

No need to apologize, but it's accepted if it makes you feel better. You're self-aware, able to take feedback, and can apologize (three traits many people lack! It's also hard to find all of those in a person). You're an awesome human being. Never forget that <3

 

[Deafsn0w]

*hugs you warmly*

 

[zzz919]

 

[starcrossedfate]

We love you, @worldexploder.

 

[Anje]

Yes I want to CTB by jumping off the bridge but I was very crass to a lot of you who questioned wether or not it would work. Then I got very angry. I filly apologize and love you all. A lot of the things I said were just wrong. Like saying that everyone who gets pregnant is a criminal and vile. What I said about pregnant women was inexcusable. I wish I was aborted. That's were all the anger comes from. I have no right to take my own experiences and my own pain and shit on everyone. I also shouldn't berate people who question my methods. I have questioned many other people's methods as well.

I am so so so sorry you guys, y'all are like a family and I love y'all.

Having kids is bloody immoral.

 

[AveryConure]

People get overwhelmed and say shit they never truly mean. It happens.

 

[hunter_lewis]

Yes I want to CTB by jumping off the bridge but I was very crass to a lot of you who questioned wether or not it would work. Then I got very angry. I filly apologize and love you all. A lot of the things I said were just wrong. Like saying that everyone who gets pregnant is a criminal and vile. What I said about pregnant women was inexcusable. I wish I was aborted. That's were all the anger comes from. I have no right to take my own experiences and my own pain and shit on everyone. I also shouldn't berate people who question my methods. I have questioned many other people's methods as well.

I am so so so sorry you guys, y'all are like a family and I love y'all.

At least concerning myself I have only read positive things from you on here