Venting I want out of this misery

[cazza82]

I've been feeling this way for 2 years now I've tried everything and every time I get a little hope something bad always happens so I can never be happy my husband suffered a massive stroke when I was heavily pregnant nearly 6 years ago everything's went downhill from then I now have severe anxiety and depression suicide is all I think of day in day out I do see someone here in the UK but I can't fully just say how I truly feel I never feel listened to no one sees or hears me I feel invisible everyone likes to just rip me apart and make me feel completely and utterly worthless I have my method it's just actually doing it would setting a date make it more real and give me that push to end this unbearable pain I feel like I'm suffocating getting up everyday I just can't do it anymore

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I can commisurate. I've been in a major depressive episode for the last two years and also want to die. I think about suicide every second of every day. I am barely functioning and most days can't get out of bed. I've tried countless meds, ketamine and ECT. Therapy is useless. I'm so sorry you are suffering. I wouldn't wish this hellscape on anyone.