Help I want kill myself but

[Loserguy10]

I am afraid of disappear.
Idk why but i am really afraid of this.
I dont have a nice life and i have many problems like social phobia,obsessive compulsive disorder,maladaptive daydreaming and laughing without reason(i dont know why i do this) alrwady many people thinking that i am stupid and making fun of me because i always laughing.
And so i dont have any reason to live amd i dont afraid of pain but such fears making me crazy..
I dont know what to do about it.

 

[Life+me=error]

You are afraid of nothingness?!
I understand you fear and I sometimes have that fear too. But try to think of the time before you were born. Sure you weren't aware of yourself and your surroundings but you were at peace without pain.

 

[Worndown]

There is a medication for uncontrolled laughing. Danny Glover did the ads a few years ago. That might eliminate one problem from the list.

 

[TimeToDie]

There is a medication for uncontrolled laughing. Danny Glover did the ads a few years ago. That might eliminate one problem from the list.

Nuedexta, the uber-expensive version of DXM.

 

[bigj75]

There is a medication for uncontrolled laughing. Danny Glover did the ads a few years ago. That might eliminate one problem from the list.

 

[Final Escape]

Nuedexta, the uber-expensive version of DXM.

Wow! I've never heard of uncontrollable laughing as a disorder that's a new one. I wonder what causes that?

 

[Worndown]

I always thought the need to sell a new medication. I guess it is real.

 

[cornflowerblue]

Nuedexta, the uber-expensive version of DXM.

The expensive part is the other ingredient. I asked a compounding pharmacy about mixing the med and they said their wholesale cost just to order the chemical, before any labor costs, not including markup for profit, and not including the dxm, would be $350/mo.

Wow! I've never heard of uncontrollable laughing as a disorder that's a new one. I wonder what causes that?

https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/pseudobulbar-affect/symptoms-causes/syc-20353737 Neurological issues: stroke, MS, brain injury, ALS.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I am afraid of disappear.
Idk why but i am really afraid of this.
I dont have a nice life and i have many problems like social phobia,obsessive compulsive disorder,maladaptive daydreaming and laughing without reason(i dont know why i do this) alrwady many people thinking that i am stupid and making fun of me because i always laughing.
And so i dont have any reason to live amd i dont afraid of pain but such fears making me crazy..
I dont know what to do about it.

Try and listen to this.

 

[TimeToDie]

The expensive part is the other ingredient. I asked a compounding pharmacy about mixing the med and they said their wholesale cost just to order the chemical, before any labor costs, not including markup for profit, and not including the dxm, would be $350/mo.

That's odd. It sure is cheap in pill form: https://www.goodrx.com/quinidine-sulfate

 

[cornflowerblue]

That's odd. It sure is cheap in pill form: https://www.goodrx.com/quinidine-sulfate

That's not necessarily the cost to the pharmacy. Pharmacies lose money on GoodRX and often end up forced to sell drugs to customers for less than the pharmacy paid to order them, because part of their PBM contract requires them to accept goodrx. It's why independent pharmacies don't accept the coupons.

 

[RM5998]

@Loserguy10 That makes two of us... I'm still here because of that fear of the void. Otherwise, I would have died last November. Knowing that it's irrational doesn't make it any less paralyzing.

 

[dreamsofdestruction]

There is a medication for uncontrolled laughing. Danny Glover did the ads a few years ago. That might eliminate one problem from the list.

Wait, is that real or are you just trying to say Danny Glover isn't funny?

I thought Lethal Weapon wasn't so bad.

 

[Umbra]

Don't be scared, or keep being scared. You're going one day even if you make a full 180 and want to live, have friends, a high paying job you love etc.

 

[Worndown]

Wait, is that real or are you just trying to say Danny Glover isn't funny?

I thought Lethal Weapon wasn't so bad.

Did you see 2, 3 and 4?

 

[Kuolema]

I am afraid of disappear.
Idk why but i am really afraid of this.
I dont have a nice life and i have many problems like social phobia,obsessive compulsive disorder,maladaptive daydreaming and laughing without reason(i dont know why i do this) alrwady many people thinking that i am stupid and making fun of me because i always laughing.
And so i dont have any reason to live amd i dont afraid of pain but such fears making me crazy..
I dont know what to do about it.

I'm sort of in the same boat. I'm not so much scared of nothingness, as I am scared of existing again. Nothingness is comforting for me, it'd just be like going into a dreamless sleep without ever waking up again. It's the waking up again part that keeps me awake at night. But I see what you mean. Death is the ultimate unknown and despite what society says, facing it head on is one of the bravest things a human being can do. I pray that you find peace of mind before you ctb. And if you don't end up dying, then I wish you all the best and hope things get better for you.

Oh by the way, fuck those people making fun of you.

 

[GoingSoonish]

I'm sort of in the same boat. I'm not so much scared of nothingness, as I am scared of existing again.

I try to remind myself that its irrational but i continue to be afraid of reincarnation.