I can't start crying. I'm not even sure why because I really want to cry all the time, maybe because I'm not alone and really don't want to be heard or because I'm afraid I won't be able to stop.
I'm glad you posted it here, I like that we can be here for each other. I discovered distraction doesn't work for me, I mean it does-I get distracted. But it doesn't give me want I want, i doesn't solve the problem, it doesn't make anything better, my situation. I just end up loosing time to distractions but nothing gets fixed and what's the point in that? There is none for me.
im sorry today is hard for you❤❤❤
Yeah...distractions don't solve my problem, or make anything better in the long run. I just don't have anything else to do, nor do I really want to do anything substantial.
Thank you. Some days are...easier(?) than others, I suppose. It actually started when I went to cancel my gym membership. It's located in a plaza that I used to go to all of the time. A lot of the stores there are closed now, and it just looks so dead and depressing... That's how I've been feeling about my childhood, and really about everything now. And it just struck a nerve, I guess.
It's not pathetic. It's heartfelt.
Sometimes I feel like I'm in a waiting room that just goes on and on, and I find myself filling the time with YouTube, and a few other things
Hope you begin to feel a bit better soon..
Thank you. I've just felt very pathetic since this whole thing happened back in March.
That's...a very good way of looking at it. It makes a lot of sense when you put it that way.
I turn the tv up loud, music up loud and play a game on my phone..try to drown it out
I can't even bring myself to play Runescape on my phone, which I could easily do with YouTube on in the background, or something. I've wanted to pick up my games again after 3 months...but I just don't have any motivation for it.
You poor thing
, thank you for sharing your feelings. We are all suffering here remember, we are all on this site not only to look for methods but to support eachother and to let each other know that we are not alone. I've been pacing back and forth in my room most of the day, i'm just so anxious, like there is something in my chest that i just want to tear out.
Thank you, and everybody else, for taking the time to read my ramblings. I need to muster up the energy to be more active on here again. I've dipped my toe back in a little bit earlier this week...but that didn't come without a toll. Geez, I sound so sad, and in a bad way.
I had anxiety for such a long time, but thankfully, I've been able to mostly drop it due to my situation. Now it's just full on depression, which I would rather deal with than anxiety, to be honest.
I hope you're able to calm your nerves. Is there anything on your mind that you'd like to share? You can feel free to PM me, and that goes for anybody. I know I sound like a huge wreck right now (and I am), but I will still listen and try to talk you through whatever it is that's troubling you.
