BitterlyAlive_
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- Dec 8, 2020
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Holy fuck, I didn't think I was so...out of control. The first time, I managed to stop myself. Last night, I began another attempt. The only reason I didn't complete it is because I couldn't get out of bed to finish the job. I was so, so ready.
I've been incredibly intoxicated all week long. Just so tired of life, tired of my thoughts and pain. This helps a lot, being so dissociated and hazy. But if I'm going to have literal suicide attempts then I gotta stop. I wanted to die so bad and was fully intent on killing myself last night. I was reminded to try and wait until I'm sober and in my right mind.
I don't know why I'm saying this. I don't want attention, nor do I want to worry anyone. I guess I just gotta tell someone. Every day I get closer and closer....
I've been incredibly intoxicated all week long. Just so tired of life, tired of my thoughts and pain. This helps a lot, being so dissociated and hazy. But if I'm going to have literal suicide attempts then I gotta stop. I wanted to die so bad and was fully intent on killing myself last night. I was reminded to try and wait until I'm sober and in my right mind.
I don't know why I'm saying this. I don't want attention, nor do I want to worry anyone. I guess I just gotta tell someone. Every day I get closer and closer....