I told my mom that i was going to ctb in 6 months

[Emily123]

i don't know if I did a right thing or not. she is in another country and she can't call the police in the country that I am living now . i just wanted to make her prepared for my death. She is the main reason that I cannot do it . Anytime that i make my decision i imagine that she will be looking for me for the rest of her life . i though it may be easier for her if i tell her myself that i will be death soon

 

[Brokenwithbpd]

Wow. What did she say? I can't ctn now because my mom could never handle it :(

 

[autumnal]

i don't know if I did a right thing or not. she is in another country and she can't call the police in the country that I am living now . i just wanted to make her prepared for my death. She is the main reason that I cannot do it . Anytime that i make my decision i imagine that she will be looking for me for the rest of her life . i though it may be easier for her if i tell her myself that i will be death soon

Wow. What did she say? I can't ctn now because my mom could never handle it :(

Exactly, way to leave out the most important part of the story OP!

 

[Emily123]

Wow. What did she say? I can't ctn now because my mom could never handle it :(

she was crying . she tried to convince me that my life is not as bad as I think

 

[Heavy]

she was crying . she tried to convince me that my life is not as bad as I think

Typical parents. Life is exactly as bad as you (we) think it is.

 

[rhiino]

Yeah, that reminds me of my parents. Of course life is as bad as the person that lives it thinks it is. Who can better tell how good the quality of life is if not the person that lives it itself?

 

[ebt88]

Why in 6 months? That's a lot of time ahead. Your mom might come up with something to intercede during that time. Also what's ur story?

 

[MeriDeath]

Typical parents. Life is exactly as bad as you (we) think it is.

True, unfortunately.
I'm happy OP prepared her mom for the worst.
Sadly, there is no proper way to escape our future. It is just what it is. And they have to respect our decision. @Emily123

 

[IrRegularjoe]

Typical parents. Life is exactly as bad as you (we) think it is.

Why is it somehow a negative that her mother cares about her.

 

[Kornyboyo]

She can absolutely call the cops on you.

 

[Emily123]

Why in 6 months? That's a lot of time ahead. Your mom might come up with something to intercede during that time. Also what's ur story?

i still have fears . i need more time to make myself ready . it will also be easier for my mom to accept it if I give her more time

She can absolutely call the cops on you.

She cannot . she's living in another country . even if she could, they will not have a rigid proof to take legal actions. there was a few weeks ago that cops came to my house (it was for another reason ) and i didn't boder too much to be polite when i asked them to leave my house immediately

 

[mx5nb3]

I relate to your struggle. I tried telling my parents twice. Their response was offering to put me back into therapy, get me on meds, try to force me into believing life is worth it. I tried.. I really tried to make them understand. Its going to hurt them when i go but ive got to get it done. Its just been too damn long and they will never understand.