I threw away my ctb equipment, goodbye forever.

[Busticket]

I decided once and for all that I am not going to ctb and I threw away my ctb equipment that I purchased a few months ago.

I am 29 now and I think I will still probably ctb in 40 years, in 2062, when I am 70 and my health and cognition will start detiriorating due to old age.

It's going to be an incredibly lonely, painful and ultimately pointless ride but it is what it is.
I know I will never have a gf and my life will be very lonely and hard, but I have accepted it.

In the back of my mind I will remember the fact that this ride will not last forever
Ctb or natural death, one day I will be liberated from this lonely, unpleasant pointless suffering that my life has become.

Also, no matter how bad my life is or will be, I would never want to be somebody else no matter how good and better than mine their life is.
I was born me and I will be me until the day I die.

I have also decided to never comeback to this website again.
It doesn't make me feel good mentally to be here.

So anyways, I would like to thank all of the good people in here who helped me and replied positively to my threads.
I wish you all the best.

I am going to disable my account in a few hours.

Goodbye forever,
Busticket.

 

[motel rooms]

Goodbye forever,
Busticket.

So, see you in 24 h, as usual?

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, life can be tiring and it can be cruel to us, but I hope things go well for you.

 

[fruit-loops]

Have good luck, I hope it will be a little better than you figured out!

 

[CC123]

Best wishes

 

[fruit-loops]

(…)"We wish you Well, and never to see you again" :)

Great finale! xD

 

[Cuppatea856]

I decided once and for all that I am not going to ctb and I threw away my ctb equipment that I purchased a few months ago.

I am 29 now and I think I will still probably ctb in 40 years, in 2062, when I am 70 and my health and cognition will start detiriorating due to old age.

It's going to be an incredibly lonely, painful and ultimately pointless ride but it is what it is.
I know I will never have a gf and my life will be very lonely and hard, but I have accepted it.

In the back of my mind I will remember the fact that this ride will not last forever
Ctb or natural death, one day I will be liberated from this lonely, unpleasant pointless suffering that my life has become.

Also, no matter how bad my life is or will be, I would never want to be somebody else no matter how good and better than mine their life is.
I was born me and I will be me until the day I die.

I have also decided to never comeback to this website again.
It doesn't make me feel good mentally to be here.

So anyways, I would like to thank all of the good people in here who helped me and replied positively to my threads.
I wish you all the best.

I am going to disable my account in a few hours.

Goodbye forever,
Busticket.

I decided once and for all that I am not going to ctb and I threw away my ctb equipment that I purchased a few months ago.

I am 29 now and I think I will still probably ctb in 40 years, in 2062, when I am 70 and my health and cognition will start detiriorating due to old age.

It's going to be an incredibly lonely, painful and ultimately pointless ride but it is what it is.
I know I will never have a gf and my life will be very lonely and hard, but I have accepted it.

In the back of my mind I will remember the fact that this ride will not last forever
Ctb or natural death, one day I will be liberated from this lonely, unpleasant pointless suffering that my life has become.

Also, no matter how bad my life is or will be, I would never want to be somebody else no matter how good and better than mine their life is.
I was born me and I will be me until the day I die.

I have also decided to never comeback to this website again.
It doesn't make me feel good mentally to be here.

So anyways, I would like to thank all of the good people in here who helped me and replied positively to my threads.
I wish you all the best.

I am going to disable my account in a few hours.

Goodbye forever,
Busticket.

I wish you the best.

 

[Kattt]

Gabe away my N because it was nearing use by date. Immediately best attempt ever

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

is this because we didn't tell you what you wanted to hear about that girl?

 

[motel rooms]

Gabe away my N because it was nearing use by date.

Really? Is the person you gave it to gratefully dead?

 

[LastLoveLetter]

I suspect @Busticket will return. This is the fifth time he has said goodbye, and the third time he has said "Goodbye forever." This site seems to have a magnetic pull that he cannot keep away from.

I hope I am wrong and that he does deactivate his account, for his own sake. This forum is evidently having a negative impact on him if he keeps vacillating between leaving and staying. It strikes me as incredibly unhealthy - a kind of unwanted dependence stemming from loneliness and a need for connection and validation.

 

[The Lonely]

I suspect @Busticket will return. This is the fifth time he has said goodbye, and the third time he has said "Goodbye forever." This site seems to have a magnetic pull that he cannot keep away from.

I hope I am wrong and that he does deactivate his account, for his own sake. This forum is evidently having a negative impact on him if he keeps vacillating between leaving and staying. It strikes me as incredibly unhealthy - a kind of unwanted dependence stemming from loneliness and a need for connection and validation.

Ask
@hotelbeneathground

 

[motel rooms]

I hope I am wrong and that he does deactivate his account, for his own sake. This forum is evidently having a negative impact on him if he keeps vacillating between leaving and staying. It strikes me as incredibly unhealthy - a kind of unwanted dependence stemming from loneliness and a need for connection and validation.

Yeah, I know a thing or 2 about doing desperate, unhealthy things out of a need for connection & validation. I've just stumbled out of a hole in the ground.

"A man will beg, a man will crawl
On the sheer face of love
Like a fly on a wall
It's no secret at all"

Merry Sunday, OP & everyone else! May God, who doesn't exist, bless all of our miserable asses!