Venting I thought things were getting better

[4Kumo7]

During the past year I've been doing really well thanks to Him, but now that He's gone, I feel myself slipping back into my old mentality.
I don't want to die anymore because the hope of seeing Him again gives me enough reasons to live, but going back to old habits hurts, especially when I thought I had finally overcome it.

 

[timf]

Getting a boost from someone else shows you what is possible. It may be that some of what you got from another you could duplicate on your own. In a way it might be seen as a gift.

 

[4Kumo7]

Getting a boost from someone else shows you what is possible. It may be that some of what you got from another you could duplicate on your own. In a way it might be seen as a gift.

Yeah, it is indeed possible like you said, but I just don't find the motivation to try when he's not around. I feel too lonely and those thoughts were what always helped me before meeting him.
I appreciate your words tho♡