I think Saturday might be my final day On this earth. SN method

[moon_r4]

Have been stockpiling lorazepam so have loads of that to use to get me into a calmer state.
Plan is to fast for day before and use olanzapine as antiemetic, but I have no Tagamet.

I'm going to try 10g SN In 100ml on water. I know the recommended dose is much higher but I wAnt to reduce the chances of vomiting.
If I do vomit, I can always just take more of the SN.

My self Harm has got quite bad and I have somr deep cuts that need stitching, so as long as I survive that assessment and therapist doesn't suscpect anything the I am good to go.

 

[Darkhaven]

I'm sorry that life has been so unfair to you that it has come to this.
I hope all of your pain comes to an end.

 

[Nem]

Peace

 

[Squiddy]

I wish you peace

 

[lonelymess]

I feel sorry for you, that life has been so though on you that you would harm yourself and that you feel there is no other way. Hope you find peace.
do you have any plans for tomorrow and the day after?

 

[okaoki]

i wish you a smooth exit.

 

[Azazel]

Good luck. I hope you find peace. If you wanna talk to someone during this days, you can talk to me or anyone else here

 

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[moon_r4]

I feel sorry for you, that life has been so though on you that you would harm yourself and that you feel there is no other way. Hope you find peace.
do you have any plans for tomorrow and the day after?

Start fasting and reduceing water intake. No really thought about what I'd on them days. Probably get some minor things into order, although I've already done most of. Any good ideas for that?
maybe I'd watch some of my favourite movies: Oldboy , children of men and maybe shrek.
i reaally need to survive my session with therapist and carecoordinator without being too honest. They already know I'm in a bad place at the momemt. I find it really hard to lie to them but we'll see how that goes.

 

[Rachel74]

Sending you peace

 

[lonelymess]

Start fasting and reduceing water intake. No really thought about what I'd on them days. Probably get some minor things into order, although I've already done most of. Any good ideas for that?
maybe I'd watch some of my favourite movies: Oldboy , children of men and maybe shrek.
i reaally need to survive my session with therapist and carecoordinator without being too honest. They already know I'm in a bad place at the momemt. I find it really hard to lie to them but we'll see how that goes.

I had all sorts of things in mind that I would do, or go see, but now that I feel it's about time to go, nothing really excites me anymore. So, i am afraid no tips from me . The movies are a good idea. I will also listen to my favorite music . Maybe make sure I talk to some people one last time ( not about ctb offcourse, but just to see them)

 

[takeyourshotfunboy]

Have been stockpiling lorazepam so have loads of that to use to get me into a calmer state.
Plan is to fast for day before and use olanzapine as antiemetic, but I have no Tagamet.

I'm going to try 10g SN In 100ml on water. I know the recommended dose is much higher but I wAnt to reduce the chances of vomiting.
If I do vomit, I can always just take more of the SN.

My self Harm has got quite bad and I have somr deep cuts that need stitching, so as long as I survive that assessment and therapist doesn't suscpect anything the I am good to go.

I'm so sorry it has come to this.

I cut too, but I cut very shallow these days so that they heal fast and no one notices.

I had all sorts of things in mind that I would do, or go see, but now that I feel it's about time to go, nothing really excites me anymore. So, i am afraid no tips from me . The movies are a good idea. I will also listen to my favorite music . Maybe make sure I talk to some people one last time ( not about ctb offcourse, but just to see them)

My favorite movies and music are the only things that make me "happy." Well, not exactly happy, but wallowing in my pain by listening to music that I can relate to helps me feel better for a second, ironically. Even hanging out with my friends doesn't make me happy anymore.

 

[Stan]

I wish you luck. Diverting from the protocol may bring issues.

 

[bigj75]

I wish you well on your peaceful trip.

 

[JimFord99]

Best wishes from me, too. Hope it all goes well. Advice: stick to the 48 hour regime.

 

[Jean4]

Sending you love. We will be here for you.

 

[less than]

Sorry that it has come so far. I wish all goes well for you regardless whatever your decision will be.

 

[Are you lost too?]

Either way, I hope you find the peace you're looking for. Hugs

 

[woxihuanni]

I hope you find peace...

 

[TowerUpright]

Peace be with you..

 

[moon_r4]

I ended up on a psych ward day before. Never used the SN

 

[littlelady774]

I ended up on a psych ward day before. Never used the SN

Oh no! What happened?

 

[Azazel]

I ended up on a psych ward day before. Never used the SN

I'm sorry to hear that. How are you feeling?

 

[moon_r4]

Oh no! What happened?

It's complicated. My family called the police and I was taken there in handcuffs.

I'm sorry to hear that. How are you feeling?

Frustrated and tired. Trying to play the game so hopefully I should be out tomorrow. Thanks for asking

 

[Are you lost too?]

It's complicated. My family called the police and I was taken there in handcuffs.

Frustrated and tired. Trying to play the game so hopefully I should be out tomorrow. Thanks for asking

Hope you're able to get out tomorrow!
Be strong and fake it a little longer, so you can get part of your liberty again