Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
I'm starting to feel a little hopeless. My psychiatrist asked me today what I'm getting out of the hospital program I'm in (IOP 3 days a week) and how I've been in it since the beginning of this year and keep repeating the same cycle (not take my meds, spiral, end up back in the hospital inpatient, repeat) I feel kinda bad and the reason this time for not taking my meds is because I was throwing up for 2 days straight (side note I dropped 6 lbs according to my scale from all the vomiting!) Other than that, idk why I stop so much. I hate myself for doing it. I'm probably his worst patient ever On the flip side, I've made it almost 100 days without self harm (99 today) so I guess I'm somewhat benefiting from the program? Idk.... ctb is still on the table of options