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VampQueen

VampQueen

Ace of Hearts
Feb 6, 2024
128
Unsure what to do. She left her stuff and her laptop. I knew the plan, I was apart of it but I backed out and now she's gone. No trace of her. She used this website and I just so happen to come across it. I think I know who she is on here. I can't believe she's gone. I'm sorry I betrayed you, please understand.

Any advice to deal with grief?
 
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Doemu

Doemu

⸸ I am my own end ⸸
Feb 4, 2024
212
If you are right let me tell you what could she was thinking.

1. Giving her things to you.
2. You helped her until you could.

Please don't blame yourself, everyone's make their choices.
 
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Sleeper System

Sleeper System

Z z Z z Z z Z z Z z Z
May 5, 2022
758
You don't really need to do anything. You had one job and you backed out of it.
(sorry but I can't supress this feeling of anger at you even though I have no real right to feel that)
I understand it though. Sometimes SI and other reasons give us a change of heart in the moment.
Everyone has to live with the consequences of their choices. So to shall you.
If she's gone then by all accounts she is free and even if it's sad to you, you should be happy for her.

Dealing with grief... hmm... haven't felt that yet. I guess you just remember the good times and
talk good about them to the universe. Know that one day your time will also come and you'll be free too.
This time just wasn't your time.
 
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Doemu

Doemu

⸸ I am my own end ⸸
Feb 4, 2024
212
You don't really need to do anything. You had one job and you backed out of it.
(sorry but I can't supress this feeling of anger at you even though I have no real right to feel that)
I understand it though. Sometimes SI and other reasons give us a change of heart in the moment.
Everyone has to live with the consequences of their choices. So to shall you.
If she's gone then by all accounts she is free and even if it's sad to you, you should be happy for her.

Dealing with grief... hmm... haven't felt that yet. I guess you just remember the good times and
talk good about them to the universe. Know that one day your time will also come and you'll be free too.
This time just wasn't your time.
I can't been agree with that she had a job.

It's supposed to people has to being able to kill or help others to kill themselves?

Living is to much to someone's, and take the life is to much to others.
 
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notwavinbutdrowning

Member
Jan 20, 2023
50
I've suffered too much grief to even begin to deal with it but I find this passage useful. I carry around a personal item of theirs to connect with their spirit:

"Like buccaneers, we sailed the seven seas
And drank in the wonders of your world
And returned giddy with the heady smell of your success
And when that time came, oh did we weep
But the tears that streaked our cheeks were stained with glee
Because we knew that this was not goodbye
That you'd be back, that you'd never really left
Because love does not lessen by miles
It's not locked out by doors or walls
But reinforced in thought and heart
It cannot be lost like a key or a sock
Or left behind in a box
It is present in each and every breath
And flows deep with every beat and deed
It may not be your presence but it's your essence that remains."
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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I'm sorry for your loss. Idk how you can get over with your grief, you did nothing wrong your friend is finally free and can't suffer anymore. Be happy for them!
 
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Nagito

Nagito

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May 25, 2022
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You don't really need to do anything. You had one job and you backed out of it.
(sorry but I can't supress this feeling of anger at you even though I have no real right to feel that)
I understand it though. Sometimes SI and other reasons give us a change of heart in the moment.
Everyone has to live with the consequences of their choices. So to shall you.
If she's gone then by all accounts she is free and even if it's sad to you, you should be happy for her.

Dealing with grief... hmm... haven't felt that yet. I guess you just remember the good times and
talk good about them to the universe. Know that one day your time will also come and you'll be free too.
This time just wasn't your time.
If op decided living was preferable and it wasn't time to go, we should be happy for them. What an insane thing you just said to someone who chose to live.

Whatever choice they make is their own, but comments that could make someone feel like they have to go through with it when they don't want to are despicable.
 
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notwavinbutdrowning

Member
Jan 20, 2023
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If op decided living was preferable and it wasn't time to go, we should be happy for them. What an insane thing you just said to someone who chose to live.

Whatever choice they make is their own, but comments that could make someone feel like they have to go through with it when they don't want to are despicable.
This. OP, I wish you all the best in your own personal recovery
 
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