I think I am ready to do it. I have had multiple attempts in the past but all have been potentially reversible methods as I don't think I've ever been at this low point before where I am so ready for the finality of death. I have picked a new method which is guaranteed to be successful and I can't be saved, I don't want to say what it is incase I out myself at all by my location, but I think I just wanted to share my thoughts with people who understand. In the past I have shared my suicidal thoughts with people in real life and services because deep down I knew they could help me/stop me, but this isn't an option now. I don't want to be and I can't be stopped, so the next few days have to be about me acting happy and seeing the people I want to see before I go. I don't really know why I'm posting this I just wanted to get it off of my chest because I feel quite alone with my thoughts but don't want to be stopped
